i knew that losing you had been something that haunt me a lot, my time like stopped and my lungs felt empty. it was something that i never thought we'd passed before but however we did. losing you had been something that made my life more make sense called a living because when there a few were come, then there a few were'll  go. and somehow, it makes me learn a priceless lesson that we can't keep everyone we love to always being there in our life whatever we try to did it. losing you had been painful but losing you had been something that waking up much of my sanity, that makes me not just someone older but also someone that wiser, someone whom can bear more rain-storms on her palm of hand and makes them an allay. losing you had been a disaster, had been such a battlefield that breaks almost of every part of body- every part of soul, that could ran dry every blood in someone's veins of loving, but also something that makes a moment worth to remember, to be longing, and finally; to let go. to let go of things that didn't work out and to bury them in the depth place we called as memories. losing you had been a regret, but never more. Because i know, the amount of losses are still less than the amount that stays, and what i can do at this moment is not how to having guilt on them but how to always keep things that still exists and thankful of the way they are being here as long as the world permitted it. losing you had been a war but now that i had found a peace in it then losing you can never been a such more calming thing and it's just wonderful, the way we still find happiness among of sadness and take place of ourselves in it, losing you can never felt this right. the way they said that everyone deserves to being happy instead of sad, now i get myself in it, and also you; you deserved the same way as i feel. we deserved to being the best version of ourselves even if we can not ended up together nor united, and im glad-- that you're still being you with or without my affect, because letting go of you can never been this freer in my life.