In this powerful episode, Lorri A. shares her journey through the phases of sobriety, beginning with the pain of watching a family member struggle with — and ultimately lose their life to — alcoholism. Lorri reflects on what she calls the "finest definition of hell" - an alcoholic who can't get drunk and can't get sober.  She describes how her first meetings gave her a glimmer of hope, offering connection and understanding at a time when she felt most alone. Lorri also speaks to the unexpected gifts of sobriety, including the challenge and beauty of changing cities while sober, and the importance of embracing the feeling of being lost as a path to deeper growth and surrender.