Shame is mental health's greatest weapon. It confers shame on you by telling you that you are wrong for feeling the way you feel. 

Instead of allowing shame to be the boss of you, TALK ABOUT IT. Talk about it to people you trust, to your diary, to your phone, just let out how you feel and what you fear to the light. 

Pain and struggles fear the light. Expose it. Speak up. Verbalize your fears and struggles, and see just how better you will feel afterwards.