"The moment I stopped trying to be the strongest guy in the room was the moment I finally started healing." Ryan

This Earth Xperience explores what it means to break patterns you did not know were running your life. Ryan shares his journey through anxiety, panic attacks, heartbreak, fear, emotional shutdown, and the moment he decided to stop performing strength and start becoming honest with himself. He talks about the thoughts he used to run from, the habits that numbed him and the stories he had to confront to rebuild his emotional foundation.

We walk through the moments that pushed him toward change. The breakup that broke his identity. The anxiety that started showing up in his body. The nights he could not quiet his mind. The fear of being alone. The pressure to always be strong. And the realization that healing requires stillness, honesty, and the willingness to understand your own patterns.

Ryan opens up about therapy, inner child work, the role of faith in shaping his character and the transformation that came from facing what he used to avoid. He talks about separating identity from performance, learning to communicate emotional needs, and shifting from comparison to purpose. This episode sits in the tension between the man he thought he needed to be and the man he is becoming.

Each Earth Xperience has its own fingerprint, shaped by the story of the guest. The X represents whatever we explore together. In this episode, the X is an Experience with Ryan, the creator behind Body By Ryan, a platform dedicated to fitness, mental health, emotional strength and personal growth. Through his coaching, videos and digital community, he helps people transform their bodies while also strengthening their mindset, identity and daily habits. His work focuses on sustainable growth, personal responsibility and becoming the healthiest version of yourself inside and out.

You can connect with him at bodybyryan.com and on social platforms by searching @bodybyryanfitness.

Questions to reflect on
• What part of you learned to perform strength instead of feeling?
• Which emotion do you avoid the most and why?
• What pattern keeps showing up in your relationships?
• What would healing look like if you stopped rushing it?
• What belief about yourself needs updating?
• When did you last choose yourself without guilt?
• What does emotional strength mean to you today?