In episode 36 of F The Stigma Podcast, host Laisha Martinez sits down with Ashley Pertuno, who bravely shares her story of surviving childhood abuse by a close family member, the trauma that fueled her addiction, and the mental health battles that followed her into adulthood. Ashley reveals how this pain shaped her relationships with men, pushed her deeper into substance use, and followed her through both her basketball career and her time serving in the military. From hitting rock bottom to fighting her way back to recovery, Ashley’s story is a raw and powerful look at trauma, addiction, resilience, and the strength it takes to rebuild your life after years of darkness.
*Apologies for the change in audio quality around the 17:00 mark, we experienced technical difficulties*
Chapters |
00:00 Welcome & Podcast Introduction
00:43 Ashley’s Childhood and Family Life
02:10 Experiencing Trauma and Navigating Shame
05:07 When Did the Secret Come Out?
06:49 The Challenges of Sharing and Healing
08:27 Speaking Truth, Baby Steps Toward Healing
10:27 Substances Enter the Picture
13:20 High School Struggles & Coping with Addiction
16:00 Mental Health Battles and Suicidal Thoughts
17:38 First Treatment & The ‘Great Pretender’
18:32 Addiction Progression and Chasing Stability
20:26 College Athletics and Hidden Addiction
22:45 Joining the Military: A New Escape
25:14 Military Life, Structure, and Drinking
28:44 Life After the Military: Back to Delaware
30:52 Addiction to Love and Relationships
34:29 Chasing Toxic Relationships
38:58 The Spiral Into Harder Drugs
41:53 The Depths of Addiction: Love in the Trenches
45:19 Rock Bottom: A Winter to Remember
48:04 First Real Treatment Experience
52:14 Finding Recovery & a New Perspective
55:27 Baby Steps, Willingness, and Long-Term Recovery
58:48 Value of Sobriety & Recovery Stories
01:01:28 Why Recovery Time Matters
01:04:15 The Insanity of Addiction
01:06:47 Hardest Parts of Recovery: Relationships
01:10:15 Discovering Self-Worth in Recovery
01:13:18 Addiction as a Disease – Personal Insight
01:18:55 Genetics, Awareness, and Stigma
01:22:11 Closing Thoughts & Thank You
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