I've been thinking about logic and desire all week. I had a coaching session with Dr. Erin Baker several days ago and it got me all up in my head about it, which is ironic because we both agreed my logical brain is taking up wayyy too much space in there. And here's the truth, I'm pretty uncomfortable with answering any questions connected to what I desire. Down to stupid stuff like "what movie would you like to watch?"...insert shoulder shrug.
Let's just say I've come a long way in my codependence (thank you twelve step) but I still have galaxies to go. And since this is the case, my brave but neglected intuition is up a creek most days; because the truth is, the desire I don’t like talking about comes from that deep inner knowing which is always trying to lead us to our highest and best.
I was reading a wonderful newsletter by Mallory Leone of Four Corners Studio and she was suggesting / playing around with an exercise, she had gotten from Pilar Lesko, where you take a portion of your day and just try to listen to your intuition and see where it goes...if it says go to left while driving go left, if it says call your mom call your mom etc. I thought it sounded interesting and very concrete (which my logical brain LOVES) so I gave it a try yesterday. I made it about half way through my first intuition hit before my logical brain jumped in with a bull horn, basically shouting “ok, ok people nothing to see here” and shut down all the magic.
If we’re trying to make something true to ourselves it’s tricky to navigate all those opposing voices. Tricky to get down to that inner place that knows what it’s talking about. In The Creative Act: A Way of Being, Rick Rubin says “Think to yourself: I’m just here to create.” How simple right?! I wonder how our intuition is tied to that creative part of us, that part of us that is coming from a place of honest desire (there’s that word again). And if we listen to it how we might just find our way home or at least into a better version of our day than we had so carefully planned.
So on today's episode I'll share a little about how I did not in fact get to start my Monday out with a warm bath but ended it by creating a beautiful dinner of cereal and strawberries for my kiddos.
Lots of love.
Links to good things:
finding what's true, substack
https://findingwhatstrue.substack.com/
four corners studio, mallory leone
https://www.fourcorners.studio/
joy-full af; dr. erin baker
the creative act; a way of being by rick rubin