What do you do when your own sinfulness creates darkness & consequences in your life? Where do you turn for relief? When it comes to spiritual sickness, most people are experts at symptom management. We numb guilt w/distractions, cover shame w/excuses, and patch sin with quick fixes. We rearrange the spiritual furniture in the dark & call it progress. But here’s the problem: you can’t medicate a sinful heart. Therapy sessions can treat wounds but can’t cure depravity. That’s where many of us live. We know the darkness. We feel the depravity. But we resist the only real cure. Most of us don’t reject God outright, we just try to fix ourselves without Him. We don’t deny sin; we just downplay it. We don’t repent; we self-repair. And self-repair always fails. That’s why the sad part of the story in this passage matters. It exposes the futility of treating sin with quick fixes, and points us to the grace that alone can give us a new heart. Saul’s torment stands as a flashing red warning light. It exposes what happens when we try to manage our sin instead of repenting of it. Band-aids can’t fix a soul that’s bleeding out. Only the sheer grace of God reaches that deep.