You grew up in church but suddenly, you can't tell if God cares about you. What do you do? Our guest today shares the moment when she didn't recognize herself, didn't feel God's presence, and what she did next. Ciara Laine Myers is an award-winning business owner, blogger, and author of Glasses Off: Seeing God When Your Vision Is Gone. Today, Ciara shares with us her reaction to trauma, the moment her secrets became known, and the practices that brought her back to health. Plus, we talk about calling and why it may not mean what you think. Ciara's story reminds us that no matter how far we feel from God, it's only one step back. Listen to Ciara's story wherever you get your podcasts now!   Stories Ciara shared: Struggling with calling and asking God for fresh insight Growing up on a little ranch in Texas in a Christian family Getting saved when she was five Being abused sexually by a friend at seven Processing her experience in college Deciding to be “bad Ciara” and where that led her Realizing that she didn’t feel God anymore and how that felt Going to the hospital with severe pain being forced to confess her drug use to her grandma Getting back with a previous boyfriend and getting pregnant Deciding to have a date with God for 60 days Getting “serious” about finding her calling Why humility is so important in an influencer culture The vision of her purpose from the Lord The urgency test and the action you need to take Great quotes from Ciara: If good Ciara is being abused, I’m going to be bad Ciara. There was one moment that I looked in the mirror and thought "I don't really feel God anymore, and it was cold." Calling is not a career. It’s a space on Earth to live out your purpose. Resources we mentioned: Ciara’s website Glasses Off: Seeing God When Your Vision Is Gone by Ciara Laine Myers Related episodes: Mary DeMuth and Her Avenue for Healing Chuck DeGroat and The Invitation to Obscurity Dan Rudman and Ripples of the Gospel