After 18 years of drinking, countless blackouts, arrests, and hospital stays, I finally hit my bottom—and started to climb. This podcast is about what it really looks like to get sober. No sugarcoating. No step-by-step manual. Just honest conversations about addiction, recovery, relapse, and everything in between. If you’ve struggled, if someone you love is struggling, or if you just want to understand the chaos behind the bottle—this is for you. Let’s talk about what happens after rock bottom.
After 18 years of drinking, countless blackouts, arrests, and hospital stays, I finally hit my bottom—and started to climb. This podcast is about what it really looks like to get sober. No sugarcoating. No step-by-step manual. Just honest conversations about addiction, recovery, relapse, and everything in between. If you’ve struggled, if someone you love is struggling, or if you just want to understand the chaos behind the bottle—this is for you. Let’s talk about what happens after rock bottom.

In this conversation, Ryan and Rachel have Joseph back on the show! Joseph Pennell discusses the importance of embracing humor as a tool for personal growth.He shares his journey of learning to laugh at himself and how this has helped him overcome feelings of shame. The dialogue explores the connection between humor and emotional resilience, particularly in the context of dealing with grief and personal challenges. Ryan and Rachel also go into their dark sides in sobriety. Tune in!