I’m over the 50/50 conversations.

Cause who’s really talking splitting money with a guy who can’t even locate himself?

I’m talking vibe change.

You ask.

He acts like nothings changed.

Why isn’t there more of: “look I’m processing something— we are still good but give me a minute.” 

Instead of acting different and making me feel like I’m tripping. 

If we say “at this big age” we are going to be open, honest and transparent… then there is a moment where vulnerability will help us “win the relationship” but you choose otherwise and expect me to “pull the emotions” out of you… we will lose the relationship every time. Why am I always put in a position where I have to think “am I tripping or did the energy shift?” — and it’s never the man with enough integrity to explain what’s going on with him or why the energy shifted.

I can’t figure out my emotions and yours sir.

So, is it really about the 50/50? 

-I have thoughts about him-

Originally Written: December 2023

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