In this episode, I get candid about my journey with eros, sex, feeling sexual shut-down and closed, motherhood, and the major shifts that took place after I had a baby.
I lay out some of the energetic patterns that played out for me and kept me locked out of body and sexual expression. I talk about how motherhood set fire to these old patterns and allowed me to not just birth a baby, but a new version of myself.
I talk about the energetic pattern of Feminine starvation vs. Feminine nourishment and I also talk about the damsel patterns that kept me looking outside of myself for answers.
:::Show notes:::
2:48 - On vulnerability
3:30 - An invitation to my audience
5:10 - Quick fixes vs. rewiring deep patterns
7:55 - My story. Who I wanted to be vs. what life wanted for me
10:00 - Studying sexuality abroad
13:00 - Meeting my husband
14:30 - When eros began to shut down for me
17:55 - My study of somatics to "heal" and what it couldn't offer me
22:00 - Feelings of superiority killing my relationship
26:30 - Eros beginning to flourish after years of struggle
33:00 - The energetic pattern of Feminine starvation
35:25 - Thinness, restriction, and control
37:00 - The lie that eros has something to do with what our body looks like
39:55 - Embracing my hunger
41:30 - Is your nervous system dysregulated or are you just not eating enough:
42:00 - Nourishment and sexual opening
48:50 - The damsel pattern
52:00 - Motherhood and birth as an initiation into radical responsibility
58:00 - Sovereignty, responsibility, and what it has to do with our sexual opening