In this remastered and deeply loved episode, I sit down with Nikki, a mother of two, human design reader, former foreign correspondent, and a woman who lives boldly by her own inner authority. Together we revisit her extraordinary journeys through conception, birth, loss, and the reclamation of instinctual motherhood.

As we approach 100 episodes and celebrate two years of Soul Evolution, this conversation returns because it is one of the most powerful, multidimensional birth stories ever shared on the podcast. This episode moves through conscious conception, an unassisted freebirth in Mexico, a tender early pregnancy loss, and the home birth of her daughter in Maine.

Nikki’s storytelling is vivid, embodied, intuitive, and unfiltered. She brings us into the portal of altered states in birth, the ancestral presence of her grandmother, the intelligence of her body, the raw honesty of postpartum, and the spiritual potency of loss.

• Conscious conception, intuition, and the moment Nikki knew she was pregnant before taking a test
• Choosing freebirth through deep trust, self-responsibility, and body literacy
• How fear dissolves when a woman confronts it head-on, instead of trying to strategize around it
• The ancestral story of Nikki’s grandmother giving birth alone in a field
• Early pregnancy loss as a rite of passage, and how she released her baby at home in ceremony
• How her daughter’s spirit communicated with her after the loss
• Navigating pregnancy with a toddler, exhaustion, and fear of positioning
• The potent physiological “quietude” rest phase before pushing
• Two wildly different labors: a 12-hour unassisted first birth in Mexico and a 5.5-hour birth in Maine
• Postpartum shifts, porousness, boundaries, and the deep need for support
• The intelligence of birth when a woman is undisturbed

Nikki is a mother of two, a human design reader, and a former journalist whose life path has taken her across continents in devotion to sovereignty, intuition, and spirit.

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Music: The Ancients (feat. Loga Ramin Torkian) by Azam Ali

Disclaimer:

The information and resources provided by me are not intended to constitute or replace medical or midwifery advice or a Mother’s intuition. Instead, all information provided is intended for education purposes only. My advice is not to be seen as medical diagnosis or to treat any medical illness or condition of Mother or baby/fetus.

Keywords: natural birth, home birth, freebirth, physiological birth, birth stories, postpartum healing, women’s circles, rites of passage, womb wisdom, feminine embodiment, sisterhood, conscious conception, birth trauma healing, matrescence, menopause, first-time mom birth story, VBAC, spirit baby.