Growing up with our family we all assume this is normal or what everyone does for the most part. Until we start to realize that isn't true. Unfortunately, chaos is what we will continue to be pulled to and into easier than others. It's familiar and addictive. All of our days regardless of the way it's being experienced, good and calm, or intense and wrong. The way you do it is your biggest habit & addiction and most of us stay in not the ideal or what we like or want most, out of comfort and fear. Or sometimes out of necessity, manipulation, and toxic situations. I think one reason I was there so long is because of the false sense of somehow him being tied to me improving which while I did due to no longer doing heroin, that's the only thing that improved, and I lost everything else. I will try to find a brief explanation of all of the types of narcissistic predators because it may help those who can't or don't know yet to identify one. Also please don't cling to define all things and remove the ways of thinking when we deem things quality, correct, or important or that is more do than your ideas and feelings.