I was well into my late twenties before I learned that 50% of people on this pale blue dot do not have an “inner voice” going on in their heads.

This blew my mind — I can’t comprehend what it would be like to not have this inner monolog constantly going on in the background. When it comes to my inner voice that bitch always has something to say, or some clever retort not safe for work, or some random factoid I learned in 2nd grade about the life cycle of a lady bug, and what do Ladybugs have to do with what I’m doing at the moment, absolutely nothing –– It’s just an interesting fact.

I’ve always had this ability for as long as I can remember, so to be without it, It completely baffles me how people exist. How do you form thoughts if you don’t have an inner voice to do it, like is it just a bunch of emotional clouds looking for words — it baffles me.

I think some of my most profound conversations I’ve ever had were the internal ones with this part of my brain.

I’m also a musician so I think in melody, but sometimes the occasional melody, chorus or jingle will get stuck on repeat and drive me absolutely crazy, especially at night. A few weeks ago I was violently attacked by the 80’s TV Theme song from the Love Boat.

It’s weird how our brains enjoy torturing us that way… at 3am, without my consent.