"I'm codependent with the pain of this world! Why?"

A short podcast on the idea of Surrender as a means to wholeness. Recorded this right after a lit therapy session where I had an AHA! moment.

Even though life seems to always involve some pain and suffering as well as joy and peace, we should distinguish the different kinds of suffering. If I shoot myself in the foot as a lifestyle habit, that is one kind of suffering. Another is the kind we feel as we navigate life while doing our best to avoid avoidable suffering. I've had a tendency to choose unconstructive behaviours throughout my life. And then I have to "heal" the damage I cause. Because of this, I've developed an addiction to "heal." Sometimes we just need to let go or stop being destructive in small and big ways, and that is the "healing."

Im codependent with the pain of this world!

I wouldn’t dare be joyful

thats selfish and shameful

To serve the world

I need to, as an empathic person, take on its hurt

and let shame determine

what I “should” do with my life

Im done “shoulding” on myself!!!

Maybe me following my joy

leads to selflessness!

Maybe I dont need to apologize for existing!

Imagine that!!

Im sacred to not be hurting

all the time!