Introduction: In this episode of Fender Gender, hosts Eyma and Maxine welcome LJ, a non-binary trans masculine poet and educator, to share their journey of self-discovery and the complexities of gender identity. The conversation dives deep into the nuances of being non-binary, the experience of transition, and the importance of community support.
Understanding Identity: The episode begins with LJ sharing their background as a Chinese adoptee, highlighting the unique intersections of their identity. They reflect on how labels like "trans masculine" and "trans man" can mean different things to different people, emphasizing personal preference in defining one’s identity.
The Journey of Discovery: LJ reveals that their journey toward self-identity began at the age of 16 during a queer summer camp in Ontario. Surrounded by trans masculine individuals, they realized that being non-binary was a valid and recognized identity, which opened up new possibilities for them.
Hormones and the Body: As the conversation progresses, the topic of hormone therapy comes up. LJ discusses their initial hesitations about starting testosterone and how they navigated the changes it brought. Despite passing as male after starting hormones, they maintain a strong identification as non-binary. LJ describes their experience as being on a spectrum rather than strictly identifying as a man, which reflects the fluidity of gender identity.
Unexpected Realizations: Throughout their transition, LJ faced unexpected challenges and realizations. They recount how their mental image of themselves aligned with the physical changes brought about by testosterone. This alignment provided a sense of validation and fulfillment, as LJ felt they were finally stepping into a part of themselves that had always existed but had not fully manifested.
Familial Relationships and Acceptance: The conversation also touches on family dynamics, particularly how LJ’s non-binary identity was received by their parents. They share the complexities of being understood within a family that may find it easier to grasp a binary identity. LJ reflects on their childhood experiences and how their interests and behaviours hinted at their true identity long before they had the language to express it.
Conclusion: The episode wraps up with key takeaways about the importance of community, self-acceptance, and the ongoing journey of exploring one’s identity. LJ’s story serves as a reminder of the diverse experiences within the gender spectrum and the need for understanding and support. Ultimately, embracing one’s true self is a journey worth taking, no matter where it leads.
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