Like I guess I'll never truly know whether people like me, appreciate me, hate me, are annoyed by me, or don't care.  It's just a big hodgepodge of bs that I can’t really see through. Like I’m serious, the amount of people who have later come up to me saying they remember me or still talk about things I did or noticed/recognized me back then is in a way really awkward.  Like as I said in the podcast, it confuses me and I don’t quite know how to take it.  Like it would be a complement if not for the literally MEMORY I have of the time. But it's whatever. No point focusing on it. Not like answers to these questions will change the present or the past.