Jar 3: I Want to Want!
In this episode of Quince Marmalade, I explore the longing we all feel during the holidays — the ache for meaning, purpose,inspiration, and a life that feels alive. As I stir my warm quince marmalade and dream of pancakes and Italian coffee, I reflect on how easily we fall into monotony, numbness, and the endless waiting for happiness that never seems to come.
I speak honestly about the sadness of the season, thepressure around food and body image, the loneliness that haunts December, and the quiet despair of living a life that feels too small for the soul inside you. I explore the deeper meaning of desire, motivation, existential longing, spiritual awakening, and the hunger for a life filled with beauty, purpose, and dreams.
This episode is about breaking out of routine, refusing alife lived from weekend to weekend, and rediscovering the divine spark within us — the spark that wants to create, to feel, to rise, to want more than consumption and repetition. I reflect on how society has lost its meaning, how holidays have become empty rituals, and how we must reclaim our passion for being alive.
Through storytelling, imagination, and emotional honesty, IInvite you to reconnect with your wildest desires — the ones that call you toward art, love, beauty, travel, inspiration, and your true essence. Whether dreaming of Capri, the scent of the Mediterranean, or the music of a mandolin, this jar of marmalade is about awakening the soul’s appetite for life.
If you’ve been feeling numb, tired, stuck, or uninspired,this episode is your reminder:
You are meant to want. You are meant to live. You are meant for more.
Jar 2: Broken Families – The House You Were Born In IsYour Destiny
In this episode of Quince Marmalade, I explore the truth and pain of broken families and how the home we’re born intoshapes our entire destiny. Through storytelling, reflection, psychology, and spiritual insight, I talk about how childhood wounds, emotional neglect, and the absence of love leave deep marks on the soul — marks that follow us into adulthood unless we consciously heal them.
I reflect on family values, emotional security, attachment wounds, trauma, inner child healing, and the collapse of modern family structures in today’s world. I share how growing up without love creates loneliness, self-hatred, and the feeling of being a “stray soul,” and how this pain can lead to destructive patterns, depression, addiction, or lifelong emptiness.
But I also speak about transformation: how we can breakthese cycles through self-awareness, self-love, spiritual awakening, and inner work. I explore how children raised in nurturing families grow with confidence and meaning — and how those from broken homes must rebuild themselves from the inside out.
This episode blends psychology, spirituality, culture,philosophy, and emotional healing, reminding us that love within the family creates love within society — and suffering within the family creates suffering in the world.
If you grew up without warmth, respect, or stability, thisjar of marmalade is for you. Together, we begin the journey of healing the inner child, restoring our dignity, and finding the light within our own souls.
In this episode of Quince Marmalade, I explore the deep and often unspoken experience of Christmas loneliness — that bittersweet mix of longing, silence, childhood wounds, and the desire for real love. Through personal memories and poetic reflection, I share how the holidays can awaken old emotional scars, especially for those of us who grew up in broken families or who still haven’t found the love we dream of.
I talk about the pain behind festive lights, the emptiness behind Christmas songs, and the quiet ache of watching the world celebrate while your soul feels cold. But I also explore how loneliness can become a powerful force for healing, inner work, resilience, and spiritual transformation when we allow it to speak its truth.
This episode blends storytelling, psychology, spirituality, trauma healing, self-discovery, and emotional alchemy. Ireflect on how loneliness can either suffocate us or become the creative fire that pushes us toward our dreams. I share ways to cope with holiday sadness, reconnect with yourself, and turn your pain into something meaningful, beautiful, and life-changing.
The lonely Christmas may break the heart — but it can also open it.
And somewhere along the way, when we grow, create, and stay true to our essence… love will come.
If you’re feeling lost, lonely, or emotionally overwhelmed during the holidays, this episode is a gentle companion and a reminder that you’re not alone — your soul is still capable of light, warmth, and transformation.
In this first episode of Quince Marmalade, I invite you into the story of the quince — a fruit that mirrors the journey of the human soul: tough, bitter, fragrant, fragile, and capable of deep transformation. Inspired by my poem “Quince Marmalade,” I share memories from my childhood, the half-dead quince tree that grew beside my home, and how its resilience shaped my understanding of healing, pain, and inner rebirth.
As I reflect on loneliness, a broken family, eating disorders, and the noise of a toxic culture, I explore how the quince became a symbol of emotional healing, spiritual awakening, and personal growth. Its bittersweet taste, its golden color, and the way it softens with heat reveal the alchemy of the human heart — how we transform trauma into wisdom, sorrow into strength, and bitterness into sweetness.
In this episode, I talk about self-discovery, resilience, the soul’s wounds, and the quiet beauty that survives even in darkness. I explore mythology, folklore, and the spiritual meaning of the quince as a symbol of love, luck, wisdom, and rebirth.
Our lives, like a marmalade, are mixtures of joy, fear, loss, hope, and truth. Together, we begin this journey of inner work — adding honesty, awareness, and transformation to the pot. This episode is for anyone seeking meaning, authenticity, healing, and a deeper connection to their true essence.
Welcome to Quince Marmalade — may each spoonful bring comfort, awakening, and warmth to your soul.
Quince Marmalade is a sanctuary for those who feeldeeply — the empaths, the seekers, the misfits, the ones in the middle of aquiet transformation.
Hosted by Anatoly Malakov — author, transformationalguide, and Vedic astrology coach — this podcast blends honest storytelling,spiritual insight, and emotional alchemy to turn the bitterness of life intosomething warm, golden, and sweet.
Here, we explore everything:
• love & heartbreak
• trauma & healing
• the sacred & the mundane
• beauty & ugliness
• the toxicity of modern culture
• the meaning, magic, and mess of being human
Quince Marmalade is your intimate soul kitchen — a placewhere truth softens, wounds transform, and the spirit remembers who it camehere to be.
If your soul is craving depth, authenticity, and a return toyour own essence… welcome home.