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The Angsty Pod

Yoda Olinyk

33 episodes

4 days ago

I'm skipping ahead a bit here and taking you to 2009. Brokenhearted from my messy break up with Corey, I let myself fall into the arms of the friend of my best friend's boyfriend. Him and I try desperately (and unsuccessfully!) to fit a whole relationship into a few months because surprise! I'm flying to Australia and no one can stop me. Australia is the furthest I've ever traveled, and I am drowning in homesickness. So much so, I am having visions of the guy I left behind, and am rying mysel...

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I'm skipping ahead a bit here and taking you to 2009. Brokenhearted from my messy break up with Corey, I let myself fall into the arms of the friend of my best friend's boyfriend. Him and I try desperately (and unsuccessfully!) to fit a whole relationship into a few months because surprise! I'm flying to Australia and no one can stop me. Australia is the furthest I've ever traveled, and I am drowning in homesickness. So much so, I am having visions of the guy I left behind, and am rying mysel...

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Episodes (20/33)

The Angsty Pod

Episode 29 - Can Homesickness Kill You? (Part 1)

I'm skipping ahead a bit here and taking you to 2009. Brokenhearted from my messy break up with Corey, I let myself fall into the arms of the friend of my best friend's boyfriend. Him and I try desperately (and unsuccessfully!) to fit a whole relationship into a few months because surprise! I'm flying to Australia and no one can stop me. Australia is the furthest I've ever traveled, and I am drowning in homesickness. So much so, I am having visions of the guy I left behind, and am rying mysel...

4 days ago

1 hour 10 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Interview with my Dad <3

The long-awaited episode is here!! I finally had the chance to sit down and interview my Dad, Ron, for The Angsty Pod! "Let's call it a journal, not a diary!" lol Dads... ammiright?!?! We sat down in my Dad's living room, mic between us, Dad sipping wine, me sipping Gingerale, and we talked for about four hours. We covered all kinds of topics, including the way his mother smelled, eating escargot, staying open to life's opportunities, writing practice, and much more. In this episo...

2 weeks ago

1 hour 29 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 28 with Sarah Hanson

Join me as I chat with my pal and client, Sarah Hanson! Sarah (she/her) is a poet from Minneapolis, Minnesota. She is a truth teller, trauma survivor, and constant reinventor. Sarah's writing practice is "in bloom" and her first poetry collection will be out April 28th! In this episode, we talk about poetry, trusting yourself, and the importance of friendship. We exchange hilarious, heartbreaking stories of our youth, and Sarah generously reads several poems from her junior/senior year of hig...

3 weeks ago

1 hour 24 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 27 - Big Romance?.... Or BIG Dysfunction?!?

Content Note: This episode mentions self-harm and suicidal ideation. In this week's episode, I am falling in love and terrified of saying it out loud. I'm so terrified, I start inflicting physical and spiritual harm to myself and others. There's some tough stuff in this one but it was kindof cool to read back on how in love I truly was. There are so many elements of this journal that remind me of previous journals - it's a new year and a new guy, but I am still a classic avoidant! There ...

1 month ago

1 hour 7 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 26 - Handjobs and Hard Conversations

Part way through this episode, I decide to split this journal into two episodes because just SO much is happening! It's winter 2005 and I am coked out of my mind. I go on a bender in Quebec City and am slowly falling madly in love with my very kind, albeit slightly troubled boyfriend. There's a love triangle. There's a party bus. There's a formal dance. There's sex and drugs and big time rock and roll... and there the hell are my parents?!?! I also spend some time reminiscing about my f...

2 months ago

55 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 25 - The Worst House Party Ever

CONTENT WARNING: This episode mentions suicide. Please take gentle care when listening. Kid's Help Phone: You can reach a professional counsellor at Kids Help Phone in English or French 24/7 by calling 1-800-668-6868 9-8-8: Call or text from anywhere in Canada or the U.S., anytime CMHA: Call Reach Out at 1-866-933-2023 to receive mental health and/or addictions support ------ On October 1st, 2005, I got a phone call that would change my life forever. It all started the night ...

3 months ago

47 minutes

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Episode 24 - Tanked in a Lime Green Tube Top

This episode starts with me getting kicked out of my house and ends with me rolling around in bed with someone from my past. Oh, by the way, I'm 17. Things at home are the worst they've ever been, but my parents are almost completely absent from this one. I'm left to my own devices and surprise, surprise, chaos ensues. Join me as I reminisce about my first "grown-up" date where we sit on his bed and watch South Park. I'll introduce you to a few new friends and walk you through the bende...

3 months ago

58 minutes

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Episode 23 - Committed & Desperate

Content notes: This episode mentions suicidal ideation multiple times. Take good care!! -- After a lil break, I'm back with another episode and this one SHOOK me. I turn 17 and get completely black out drunk and basically decide to RUIN my life. I am bursting at the seams with jealousy and when my anger causes a big friendship rupture, I turn to... you guessed it... cocaine! to soothe my heart. The toxicity level in my relationship is rising but in this episode, I actually focus on my r...

5 months ago

1 hour 3 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 22 - Peanut Butter Heart

In this episode, I share my first experience using hard drugs and what it was like to have my boyfriend call me a "dirty dirty e-head" in front of all my friends. I am self-conscious about my clothes, worried that what I wear will start a fight. I am drinking everything in sight and things at home are getting really, really bad. I can't concentrate at school, but for the first time, I wonder about my future - Will I be a professional chef? Or a writer? (Spoiler alert: I did both.) This episod...

6 months ago

51 minutes

The Angsty Pod

The Episode Where My Dog Dies

I'm taking a pause from my regular scheduled programming to bring you a special episode about the life and death of my dog, Gnowee. In this episode, I share tons of memories from the day I adopted Gnowee right up until her death. I share a little bit about what she taught me and how I've been handling the grief of her passing. Gnowee died on May 5th, 2025 and will forever be remembered as the sweetest, calmest, coolest, silliest dog in my heart. This episode is not for the faint of hear...

7 months ago

1 hour 10 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 20 - Codependency 101!

It's summer 2004 and I am learning everything I can about how to be a anxious/avoidant-attached-codependent... and I'm ACING IT. I miss my friends terribly and start telling my diary about my fantasies of being on my own and then SPOILER ALERT: my boyfriend reads my diary! This episode has ALL the drama, betrayal, love, friendship, and loneliness. I'm accused of cheating and I'm comforted all in the same page. It's a doozy, I tell ya!!! For more info on my work as a writing coach or to ...

9 months ago

56 minutes

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Episode 19 with jp thorn

Content Notes: This episode contains mentions of suicide, drug use, disordered eating, death, and other potentially triggering topics. Please take gentle care while listening. <3 In this episode, I have a long chat with my pal jp! We met in April 2024 when we both stumbled into the same writing workshop. Our connection was immediate, and shortly after, jp hired me to help edit their book of poems—the rest is history! jp thorn (he/they/any) is a queer, neurodivergent artist raised in & ...

9 months ago

1 hour 30 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 18 - In My Hippy Era

It's summer 2004 and I'm working my afterschool job as an egg picker at a local farm. When I'm not at work or school, I am spending every waking moment getting high and drunk. Oh, and did I mention, I aM sO LiKe iN LoVe?!?! A lot of things came to the surface in this episode but the main thing is learning that a relationship that I always thought of as not that bad, turns out to be really disturbing. This episode is LACED with drama and I really dive deep into some insan...

10 months ago

1 hour 6 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 17 - My Best (Modern) Love Story (Part 3)

It's 2018 and I'm on the very tail end of my five-week adventure in Thailand. I've been teasing it for a few weeks and today is the day I finally share the full story of my best love story (and, as a special treat, I read a rough draft of my Modern Love essay!) In this episode, I spontaneously decide to read from page 97/98 of my memoir, Salt and Sour, because there is an important story that is allllll connected. Oh yea, baby, there's a TWIST! I hope you enjoy this insanely romantic lo...

10 months ago

1 hour

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Episode 16 - She Thirsty, Literally! (Part 2)

I've just arrived to Koh Samui, Thailand. It's a quiet island and I am as lonely as one could ever be - there are no humans (except my sweet neighbor, Rod) and I've got a wretched sunburn. I share two stories of when I trusted a random stranger - one went well and one went sideways. I get suuuuper introspective and write and write and write. Spoiler Alert: this episode ends on a cliffhanger and I last minute decide that there needs to be a Part Three of this episode about Thailand. Stay tuned...

11 months ago

1 hour 5 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Episode 15 - Noodles for Breakfast (Part 1)

It's early 2019 and I've just arrived in Thailand. I'm staying with my best friend who is, like me, a bit of a mess but trying to hold it all together. We eat until we can't eat anymore, walk until we can't walk anymore, sweat until... you get the idea. In this episode, I uncover the real reason why I went to Thailand and it's only partially selfish. I pine for a good man back home who I am weeks away from breaking up with and eat fried chicken alone in my hotel room. This episode is fully of...

11 months ago

55 minutes

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Episode 14 - F*cking and Punching

This episode is an absolute rollercoaster. I've just turned 16 and am spending every waking moment of my life (when I'm not in Driver's Ed!) with my uber possessive/moody boyfriend. I haven't seen my friends in months. Both my parents are M.I.A. which just leaves me and my boyfriend, making out all over the place. Make sure you listen to this one til the end because I share one of my most favourite stories which involves a mini skirt and a pair of scissors. Enjoy!! For more info on my work as...

12 months ago

53 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Interview with Siva - Part 2

In part two of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions, drama, and laughs. In this episode, it is November 2021, and Siva and I have just met for a friendly coffee date where we think we are agreeing to become good friends, but really we have opened the door for our dynamic and wonderful love story to begi...

1 year ago

1 hour 2 minutes

The Angsty Pod

Interview with Siva - Part 1

In part one of this two-part episode, my lover Siva and I cuddle up in his basement and record a super sweet episode that makes my heart sing. This episode is a departure from the usual angst, but don't worry... it's still full of big emotions, drama, and laughs. I read diary entries from our first, second, and third date, and we discuss how it felt when I broke things off with him. Then, we both tell the story of how it felt to reconnect and (almost) immediately fall in love. I cry m...

1 year ago

1 hour 8 minutes

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Episode 13 - The One Where I Lose My Virginity

It's January 2004. I'm 15 going on 30 and am falling for the boy-next-door who sells pot and has sideburns. We spend our days making out and quoting Mall Rats. We are falling hopelessly while we try to navigate the rollercoaster that is our young love. Hormones rage. Jealousy rages. Our love blooms and brawls. In this episode, I share the embarrassing story of the first time I saw/touched a p*nis and then just a few days later, losing my virginity to the boy who stole my heart. This episode ...

1 year ago

54 minutes