When I cheated on my husband, I didn’t just lose him, I lost my friends too.

For years, those friendships had felt like family. We spent birthdays, weddings, holidays together - I thought they’d be there for life. But when my marriage ended, it all changed. Some drifted. Others ended overnight. And the loneliness that followed was unlike anything I’d ever felt.

In this episode, I talk about what really happens when the friendships you thought were forever can’t survive your awakening. How shame shapes connection. Why longevity doesn’t equal intimacy. And how, through the ashes of everything I lost, I found women who could meet me in my truth, and love me there.

If you’re standing in the wreckage of your old life, wondering who’s left, this one’s for you. You’re not alone, and this isn’t the end of your story.

💔 What’s in this episode:

• The grief of losing friendships after betrayal

• Why some people can’t come with you after awakening

• The myth of “forever friends” and what true intimacy means

• How new, soul-aligned friendships begin to form

• Finding belonging again after everything falls apart
  

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