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The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
Alex Croxford
27 episodes
1 week ago
Join Alex Croxford on The Deeper Love Podcast as she guides women healing after betraying someone they loved. Through raw, compassionate conversations, The Deeper Love Podcast dives beneath the affair to the silence, the self-betrayal, and the parts of yourself you’ve forgotten. This is your space to release shame, face the truth, and begin again. With honest stories, intimate interviews, and deep guidance, The Deeper Love Podcast will help you rise from the ashes into love that feels safe, soft, and true.
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Join Alex Croxford on The Deeper Love Podcast as she guides women healing after betraying someone they loved. Through raw, compassionate conversations, The Deeper Love Podcast dives beneath the affair to the silence, the self-betrayal, and the parts of yourself you’ve forgotten. This is your space to release shame, face the truth, and begin again. With honest stories, intimate interviews, and deep guidance, The Deeper Love Podcast will help you rise from the ashes into love that feels safe, soft, and true.
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The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#022 – This Isn’t Rock Bottom. It’s a Turning Point.

There’s often a moment after an affair when the noise dies down and the adrenaline fades, and instead of relief you’re left with something far more unsettling - a sense that you’re standing in the middle of your life, but you don’t recognise it anymore.

In this episode, I go back to New Year’s Eve - one before and one after my affair was revealed, when I did what I’d always done in social spaces and tried to be the fun one, the party girl, the woman who could laugh and drink and dance her way through anything. On the outside, nothing looked especially wrong. On the inside, the distance between me and my then-husband felt cavernous, and the emptiness I was carrying was impossible to ignore once I stopped distracting myself.

What I didn’t understand at the time was that this flat, hollow, disorienting place wasn’t a sign that everything had ended. It was the moment something fundamental had shifted. The old ways of coping weren’t working anymore, the pretending felt unbearable, and even though I had no idea what was coming next, I could feel that I couldn’t go back to who I’d been before.

This isn’t an episode about fixing anything or finding clarity. It’s about that in-between space where identity falls apart before it gets rebuilt, where you feel drained, disconnected, ashamed, and strangely awake all at once. The place where nothing feels certain, but something inside you knows the truth has already landed.

If you’re in the aftermath of an affair and finding that you feel empty, distant, unsure how you ended up here and unable to imagine going back, this conversation will help you understand why that doesn’t mean you’re broken or failing. It means you’ve crossed a line you can’t uncross.

Not the end, a turning point.

In this episode I talk about:

  • What it’s actually like when the crisis ends but the reality sets in
  • The cost of pretending you’re okay when something inside has already shifted
  • Why the sense of emptiness after an affair can feel more frightening than the chaos itself
  • How identity loss shows up long before you have words for it
  • Why not knowing what comes next doesn’t mean you’re doing this wrong

If you’re listening to this and recognising that familiar feeling of standing still while everything inside you rearranges, The Sanctuary exists for this exact moment.

It isn’t a place to rush answers or push you toward decisions. It’s somewhere to pause, to be held in the middle of the not-knowing, and to stay connected to yourself long enough for the next step to emerge naturally, rather than out of fear or pressure.

We begin on 1st January, but you can join whenever you feel called.

Click here for The Sanctuary

Find me on instagram: @iamalexcroxford

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1 week ago
26 minutes 24 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#021 – Surviving Christmas After an Affair

Christmas after an affair can feel unbearable.

While the world expects joy, gratitude, and togetherness, you may be secretly surviving something that feels anything but festive. The aftermath of an affair has a way of becoming louder at this time of year. There are fewer distractions, more time together, more family gatherings, and an unspoken pressure to be “okay” when you are very much not.

In this episode, I speak directly to the woman who is getting through Christmas minute by minute.

The woman who feels like she’s watching her life from the outside.The woman carrying grief, shame, regret, numbness, and longing all at once.

The woman missing her affair partner and judging herself for it.

The woman who feels like she doesn’t belong anywhere she used to.

I share from my own experience of Christmas in the immediate aftermath of my affair, and I name the realities most women feel but rarely say out loud. This is not an episode about fixing anything, making decisions, or “moving on.”

It’s permission to just get through this season. It’s a reminder that you are not failing, broken, or behind, and that this isn’t the end of your life, even if it feels like it.

If Christmas feels like something you just need to get through this year, this episode is for you.

In this episode we talk about:

  • Why Christmas makes the pain 10 x worse

  • The exhaustion of having to pretend everything’s “normal” while falling apart inside

  • Feeling physically present but emotionally miles away

  • Why shame gets louder in family spaces and in silence

  • Missing your affair partner and why that doesn’t mean you made the wrong choice

  • The difference between intensity and intimacy

  • Why you don’t need to make any big decisions right now

If Christmas feels like something you just have to survive, The Sanctuary exists for what comes after.

It’s the go to healing space for the women in the aftermath of an affair who are done carrying this alone. It’s a soft place to land, to put some of the weight down and to take a gentle step toward the woman you are becoming.

There is no requirement to share, no need to have clarity on where you’re going. You don’t need to be “ready”, you just have to not want to be feeling this way anymore.

You are welcome exactly as you are.

🔗 Learn more and join here: The Sanctuary


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2 weeks ago
28 minutes 28 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#020 – Why You Can’t Heal Your Affair Alone: The Power of Women Who Truly Get It

Most women in the aftermath of an affair try to heal alone.

Not because they want to, but because shame tells them it’s too embarrassing to be seen.

In today’s conversation, I’m joined by my close friend and fellow coach, Lucy Maeve. We talk about why healing on your own can only take you so far, and why women who have been betrayed someone they love need a community who support them as they navigate the rough waters they are in.

We explore why:

  • shame dissolves through empathy from others, not isolation
  • why old friendships often can’t meet who you’re becoming
  • the sisterhood wound makes group spaces feel scary
  • healing relational patterns with other women is often safer and easier than with partners
  • community becomes the “training wheels” for emotional intimacy in partnership
  • healing accelerates when you’re seen without judgment


This episode is for the woman who’s been carrying the weight of what happened, all on her own -  the one who feels misunderstood, alone, or too ashamed to ask for help.

You don’t heal shame alone.

And I am so excited to tell you, my monthly community for women healing post their affair - The Sanctuary - is now open.

It’s a place where you’re held, understood, and met without judgment.

Inside you’ll find: • women who get your story without needing the details • practices to regulate your nervous system • monthly circles for grounding and connection • a private space where shame and guilt softens

Founding rate: £222/month until 1st January, with special bonuses for December members.

If you’ve been longing for a place to land…a place where you’re not alone in what you’re carrying…a place for you to take a step towards the woman you’re becoming.

The Sanctuary is where you belong.

Join as a founding member here


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3 weeks ago
59 minutes 17 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#019 – Why Your Affair Felt So Intense but You Felt Numb Outside of It

Most women in the aftermath of an affair are drowning in questions they are struggling to find answers for:

“Why did it feel so intense?”

“Why did it make me feel so alive?”

“Why did everything else in my life feel flat?”

“Does this mean I’m broken or a bad person?”

“Does this mean I should leave my partner?”

In this episode, I speak directly to the secret most women who’ve cheated will never uncover:

You didn’t cheat because you wanted someone else.

You cheated because were so disconnected from your own emotions, needs, and truth… that you couldn’t feel anything inside your relationship anymore.

When you’ve spent years swallowing your feelings, being the strong one, keeping the peace, avoiding conflict, trying to be “easy,” and holding the entire relationship together… your nervous system eventually shuts down.

You stop feeling your emotions, you stay quiet and avoid conflict and you spend life just going through the motions.

Eventually you become numb.

And when you’re numb it’s like a part of you goes offline and anything that you can actually feel, feels like aliveness.

That’s why the affair felt intense.Not because it was love or destiny,but because sensation was the first thing that could cut through the numbness you’d been living in for years.

In this episode, I walk you through:

  • How emotional disconnection builds slowly over years

  • The tiny everyday moments where you lost yourself

  • Why you stopped asking for comfort, closeness, or help

  • Why your relationship felt distant even if you still loved him

  • Why numbness makes intensity feel like desire

  • Why the affair wasn’t about him, it was the first thing you could feel

  • How this rupture is actually the moment you begin to come home to yourself

If any part of this speaks to you…

this Wednesday 10th December is the final Softening Session of the year — and the last one ever in this format.

It’s called Rising From the Ashes of 2025 — a 90-minute space to slow down, breathe, and let go of some of the weight you’re carrying before the year closes.

If you’re holding the heaviness of this year on your chest… you’re welcome to join us.

👉 Click here to join: Rise From The Ashes of 2025


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4 weeks ago
25 minutes 27 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#018 – When You Think You’ve Ruined Love Forever

Most women believe their affair means they’ve destroyed their chance at love. But what if the moment everything fell apart was actually the moment your life cracked open? What if it was the doorway into the deepest love you’ve ever known?

In today’s episode, I share the truth I wish someone had told me years ago - that deep love isn’t effortless or pretty. It asks more of you. It requires honesty, vulnerability, and letting someone see the parts you’ve hidden your whole life. And for so many of us, that depth didn’t feel safe until everything collapsed.

I talk about my own marriage, the years I stayed silent, the IVF journey I carried alone, and the affair that forced me to finally look at the parts of myself I’d buried. And I share what it’s taken to experience the kind of love I’m in now — the kind that meets me, holds me, and asks me to stay present instead of disappearing.

If you’re scared you’ll never be loved again… or terrified you’ll ruin it all a second time… this episode will help you see what’s actually possible for you.

You’re not broken.

You’re not behind.

You’re on the edge of your becoming.

  •  What You’ll Learn in This EpisodeWhy the moment you messed up might be the moment everything finally opens
  • The difference between surface love and deep love - and why you stayed on the surface for so long
  • How emotional disconnection made the affair almost inevitable
  • Why you didn’t know how to ask for comfort, closeness, or to be held
  • What real intimacy actually requires (and why it felt terrifying before)
  • How your nervous system shapes your capacity for love
  • Why you’re not incapable of deep love, it just wasn’t safe for you yet
  • How allowing yourself to be seen changes the kind of love you can receive
  • The truth that you abandoned yourself long before you betrayed anyone else
  • Why this moment in your life might be the beginning, not the end

If this episode has touched something in you…

Wednesday 10th December is the final Softening Session of the year.

And, actually, the last one ever in this format.

It’s called Rising From the Ashes of 2025 - a 90-minute space to breathe out the weight of this year and come home to yourself before it closes. You don’t need to share. You don’t need your camera on. Just come exactly as you are.

If you want to end this year held instead of alone,

you’re so welcome to join us.

👉 Join here

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1 month ago
22 minutes 16 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#017 – The Aftermath: What Helped, What Didn’t, and How I Survived the First Months

You told the truth, or maybe the truth came out. Either way, you’re in the fallout now. The shame is heavy. The guilt feels constant. And there’s a part of you wondering if you’re ever going to feel okay again.

I made this episode for you.

For the woman sitting in the rubble of her relationship, still trying to breathe while the world she built is burning.

In this solo episode, I share the messy, honest, never-before-told details of what happened after I revealed my affair, and exactly how I survived it.

We go deep into:

  • The moment I told my ex-husband and everything began to collapse

  • What not to do in the days and weeks after the reveal (even if it feels helpful)

  • How I learned to eat again, sleep again, trust myself again

  • The role of boundaries, nature, friendship, and getting real support

This isn’t a “just love yourself” pep talk.

This is real, grounded guidance for when you feel like you’re losing everything, including yourself.

You’re not broken. You’re becoming.

And this too shall pass.


💌 If this episode speaks to you, you’ll want to be the first to hear about The Sanctuary, my new space for women healing after betrayal - opening January 2026.

Sign up to the mailing list here to be the first to know when doors open.


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1 month ago
38 minutes 22 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#016 – Two Women. Two Affairs. And The Beginning of Their Becoming

In this episode, I sat down with women’s coach Diera Story, who, like me, had an affair that changed everything.

We talk about what really sits beneath infidelity when you’re the woman who was supposed to have it all together.

How shame begins long before the betrayal.And how losing everything becomes the moment you finally start to become yourself.

Diera shares how early motherhood cracked her open, how her perfect life began to unravel, and how the affair became the wake-up call she didn’t know she needed.

We talk about the loneliness that hides behind the mask of the “good woman,” the way shame keeps us disconnected from desire, and the painful beauty of rebuilding your life from truth.

We also open up about what happened when both of our reels about infidelity went viral - the trolling, the exposure, and the deep peace that comes when you no longer hide from your story.

This conversation is a mirror for the woman standing in the wreckage of what she’s done, wondering if she can ever come back from it.

You can.

This is where becoming begins.

Takeaways

In this episode, we talk about:

  • How shame starts long before the affair ever happens

  • Why the affair often becomes the portal into feeling again

  • How hitting rock bottom opens the path to rebirth

  • What it means to grieve the woman you used to be

  • The role of spirituality and surrender in rebuilding your life

  • The freedom that comes from being fully seen

Connect with Diera

Instagram → @itsdierastory

Connect with me

Instagram → @iamalexcroxford

Find all the ways to work with me here → www.alexcroxford.com


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1 month ago
1 hour 12 minutes 8 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#015 – How I Opened My Heart After an Affair and a Divorce

I remember sitting in front of my therapist, six months after my marriage ended, tears running down my face - “What if no one ever loves me again?”

At that point, I’d been through a divorce, I’d cheated on my husband, and I’d made a mess of dating after it all. I felt broken, like damaged goods.

And underneath that was the deeper fear: that maybe I was unlovable.

In this episode, I share the real story of how I moved from that place into the deepest, most honest love of my life. It’s the story of choosing celibacy after the affair, learning to tell the truth when it scared me, and letting a man see me fully, even when I wanted to hide.

You’ll hear what I discovered about:

  • Why honesty, not perfection, opens the heart

  • How pretending to be “easy to love” keeps us disconnected

  • The difference between intensity and intimacy

  • What real love actually feels like after the chaos has ended

This is a story about what becomes possible when you finally stop lying to yourself.

If you’ve ever wondered whether love can exist after betrayal, I hope this reminds you that it can.

Real love meets you when you meet yourself.

If you’re ready to start letting love in again after everything you’ve been through, join me in The Softening Sessions - gentle spaces to practise truth, tenderness, and belonging after the rupture of an affair.

You don’t have to share your story, just come, breathe, and be held.

Sign up here →⁠ The Softening Sessions


🔗 Connect

Instagram |⁠ @iamalexcroxford⁠

Website | ⁠www.alexcroxford.com

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1 month ago
30 minutes 30 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#014 – I Used to Be Terrified Anyone Would Find Out. Now My Story’s in the Daily Mail

Six and a half years ago, I was carrying a secret that felt absolutely terrifying to say out loud.

I was so scared that anyone would find out about my affair - I felt ashamed, sick with guilt, hiding behind the version of me that looked “fine.”

Today, that same story has been printed across a double-page spread in The Daily Mail.

And it proves to me, once and for all, that shame no longer runs my life.

In this episode, I share what it took to move from silence to self-acceptance - the texts, the trembling honesty, the waves of liberation that come each time we tell the truth.

I talk about the fear of exposure, the moment I told my ex-husband, and why vulnerability became my doorway to freedom.

If you’ve ever felt trapped in guilt or terrified of being seen in your truth after an affair, this conversation is for you.

You’ll hear what healing actually looks like on the other side of secrecy - messy, human, and deeply freeing.

 In this episode

  • The moment I stopped letting shame define me

  • How honesty became my path to liberation

  • What happened when my story went public

  • Why exposure doesn’t destroy you - hiding does

  • The truth about healing guilt after betrayal

🤍 Join me inside The Softening Sessions

If you’re ready to release the weight in your chest and be witnessed in safety, join my bi-weekly circle for women healing after infidelity.

You don’t have to share your story, just come, breathe, and be held.

Sign up here → The Softening Sessions


🔗 Connect

Instagram | @iamalexcroxford

Website | www.alexcroxford.com

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2 months ago
25 minutes 2 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#013 – Losing Friendships After the Affair, and Finding Belonging Again

When I cheated on my husband, I didn’t just lose him, I lost my friends too.

For years, those friendships had felt like family. We spent birthdays, weddings, holidays together - I thought they’d be there for life. But when my marriage ended, it all changed. Some drifted. Others ended overnight. And the loneliness that followed was unlike anything I’d ever felt.

In this episode, I talk about what really happens when the friendships you thought were forever can’t survive your awakening. How shame shapes connection. Why longevity doesn’t equal intimacy. And how, through the ashes of everything I lost, I found women who could meet me in my truth, and love me there.

If you’re standing in the wreckage of your old life, wondering who’s left, this one’s for you. You’re not alone, and this isn’t the end of your story.

💔 What’s in this episode:

  • The grief of losing friendships after betrayal

  • Why some people can’t come with you after awakening

  • The myth of “forever friends” and what true intimacy means

  • How new, soul-aligned friendships begin to form

  • Finding belonging again after everything falls apart

🕯 Come to the next Softening Session — live community ritual and practice to reconnect to your heart. 👉 https://www.alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

🤍 Connect on Instagram: @iamalexcroxford 🌐 Website: www.alexcroxford.com


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2 months ago
27 minutes 10 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#012 – Seven Years in Hiding: A Woman’s Journey from Shame to Truth

This week I had the pleasure of meeting Kristina Joy - a devoted Christian wife and mother, until the secret she carried for seven years forced her to face everything she believed about love, faith, and herself.

In this conversation, Kristina shares the story she once swore she’d never say out loud, the affair that became both her deepest shame and her greatest awakening.

We speak about the loneliness that hides inside “goodness,” the pressure to be the perfect woman, and how religious conditioning can separate us from our own desires. We explore what happens when your body remembers what your beliefs taught you to forget, and how honesty, rather than punishment, becomes the way home.

If you’ve ever whispered “I can’t believe I did this,” this episode will remind you that you are not alone, and that your past is not your downfall, it’s your portal home.

In this episode we explore:

  • The emotional disconnection that began long before the affair

  • How silence and shame keep women living double lives

  • The “good girl” mask and the repression of desire

  • Confession, forgiveness, and finding safety in truth

  • Why honesty, not morality, is what heals

Resources & Links:

Kristina Joy is a Christian coach and host of the Intimacy After Infidelity podcast. Once trapped in cycles of shame and self-sabotage, she experienced deep healing and freedom and now empowers other women to do the same. Her work helps women cut the cord to the past, move forward in confidence, and find joy beyond what they thought was possible.

  • Learn more at:  www.kristinajoycoaching.com 

  • Follow Kristina on Instagram: @kristinajoycoaching 

✨ If this episode speaks to you and you want to explore these patterns in a safe, guided space, join me for the next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: www.alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

 📲 Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

 🌐 Website: www.alexcroxford.com


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2 months ago
53 minutes 53 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#011 – The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your Awakening

Ep 11 — The Phoenix Rising: When the Affair Becomes Your Awakening

We think the affair is the end.

The end of love.The end of trust.The end of who we thought we were.


But what if it’s not the end at all?

What if it’s the moment you finally wake up?

Before my affair, I was sleepwalking through life.


On the treadmill of doing everything “right” - the job, the marriage, the house, the plan.

Smiling. Performing. Holding it all together.

But underneath, I was empty. Numb.

Disconnected from what I truly wanted.


The affair shattered that illusion.

It forced me to face everything I’d been avoiding

my exhaustion, my silence, my needs, my truth.

It burned down the version of me who survived by pretending.


In this episode, I talk about:

  • Why affairs often happen as a wake-up call from the life you’ve been asleep in.

  • What “collapse” really is — and why it’s the beginning, not the end.

  • How your soul uses chaos to bring you back to truth.

  • The moment I stopped trying to rebuild the old life and started to rise from the ashes.

If you’re in that place now, where everything feels like it’s burning,

please know you’re not losing your life.

You’re losing the illusion.

And underneath it is your return.


💌 Join the next Softening Session - a live space where we hold what’s collapsing, let go of who you’ve been, and begin the return home to yourself.

Join here: Softening Sessions


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2 months ago
31 minutes 28 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#010 – You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From Yourself

Ep 10 - You Can’t Heal What You’re Still Hiding From Yourself

There’s the version of you everyone sees.

Smiling. Functioning. Saying you’re fine.

And then there’s the version of you no one sees.

Carrying the secret.

Numb. Anxious. Afraid of what would happen if the truth ever got out.

I know that version well — because I lived her.

After my affair, I didn’t collapse on the outside.

I became “better.” More successful. More accommodating. More perfect.

But the whole time, I was hiding. Not just from my husband. From myself.

In this episode, I talk about:

  • Why pretending to be fine keeps your nervous system frozen.

  • How “performing healing” stops you from actually healing.

  • The truth about what happens when you hide even from yourself.

  • Why the part of you who cheated doesn’t need judgment — she needs space to speak.

This is the episode I needed years ago, when I was still carrying the secret that almost ate me alive.


✨ Listen in if you’ve been holding something inside — whether it’s the affair, or another truth you’ve never let yourself fully feel.

You cannot heal what you’re still hiding.

But you can come home to yourself.


💌 Join the next Softening Session — a live space where we stop performing, stop pretending, and meet the part of you still scared to be seen. Click here to read more about the Softening Sessions.


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3 months ago
11 minutes 5 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#009 – The Year of The Clusterf*ck and How I Finally Chose Myself

Content note: This episode contains references to sexual assault, harassment, and STI. Please listen with care and take the space you need.

I thought the hardest part was over when my marriage ended.

I’d told my husband I cheated. We’d tried therapy. We’d separated with kindness. I moved into my own place and thought: I’ve survived the worst of it.

But what came next was what I now call the year of the clusterfuck.

A year of red flags I ignored.

Boundaries crossed and crossed again.

Love bombing disguised as intimacy.

Freeze responses I didn’t understand.

And the deep shame of asking myself, over and over: Why am I still doing this? I should know better.

In this episode I share what really happens when you keep finding yourself in relationships that hurt, even after you’ve “done the work.” Why smart women repeat painful patterns. Why your gut isn’t always your truth. And how choosing celibacy at 39 broke the cycle for me, and opened the door to meeting Adam.

We’ll explore:

  • Why “I should know better” keeps you stuck in shame

  • The truth about boundaries (and why they only work with consequences)

  • How freeze can show up long before a violation

  • Why chemistry can actually be anxiety in disguise

  • What it feels like in your body when safety arrives

  • Why you’re not broken if you keep choosing the wrong men


If you’re in the aftermath of an affair, a divorce, or a breakup, and you keep getting pulled back into chaos, this one’s for you.

Because you’re not broken.

Your body just doesn’t know safety yet.

And that can change.


The Healed Heart - my 6-month group programme - is where we break the pattern at the root so you can choose love differently.

We begin Thursday 9 October.

Ten spots only. 

The Healed Heart

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3 months ago
37 minutes 41 seconds

The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
S2#008 – Relationship Anxiety, The Cool Girl, and The Affair with Georgie Collinson

You can love someone and still betray them. You can be strong, independent, the cool girl… and still find yourself in an affair.

In this conversation with Australia’s leading anxiety therapist, Georgie Collinson, we go deep into the ways anxiety and self-betrayal shape our relationships:

    • How high-functioning anxiety becomes the mask of the cool girl
    • Why silence and “I don’t need you” energy always lead to disconnection

    • The hidden link between childhood wounds, yearning, and affairs

    • Georgie’s first public share of her own affair story — and what it taught her about love

    • Why consistency and availability in a partner regulate the nervous system more than chemistry ever will

    • How to stop abandoning yourself and start asking for what you really need

    If you’ve ever thought, “I’m fine, I don’t need anything,” but secretly felt starving for connection — this episode will crack something open.


    Resources & Links:

    • Georgie’s Instant Calm Meditation: https://anxiety-reset.mykajabi.com/instantcalm

    • Follow Georgie on Instagram: @georgiethenaturopath

    • Learn more at www.georgiecollinson.com

    💔 The Healed Heart — 6 months of real healing after betrayal

    If you cheated and you’re drowning in guilt, shame, or self-doubt, this is for you.

    This isn’t about talking it out one more time — it’s about coming back to your body, feeling what you’ve been running from, and learning to love without abandoning yourself. We start October 9. Nine spots only.

    Book your free call here → The Healed Heart


    🔗 Follow me on Instagram: @iamalexcroxford

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    3 months ago
    48 minutes 25 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    S2#007 – Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral Failure

    Episode 7: Why Cheating Is a Pattern, Not a Moral Failure

    This one’s for the woman asking herself:

    • “What is wrong with me?”

    • “Why didn’t I just leave?”

    • “How did I do this again?”

    In this episode, I explore why cheating isn’t just a one-off mistake, it’s often part of a deeper survival pattern shaped by emotional disconnection, shutdown, and unmet needs.

    We look at:

    • How your nervous system drives the behaviour you can’t make sense of

    • Why shame keeps you stuck (and moralising doesn’t help)

    • What actually creates lasting change

    This isn’t about excusing what happened — it’s about understanding it, so you don’t keep living in fear of repeating it.


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    If you were the one who cheated, and you’re still carrying guilt, confusion, or regret, this is for you.

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    3 months ago
    29 minutes 43 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    S2#006 – The Part of You Who Cheated Was Trying to Survive

    You didn’t cheat because you’re a bad person.

    You cheated because something in you was trying to survive.

    Your chest tightens.

    Your stomach drops.

    The shame rushes in.

    And you think: “Why did I do that?”

    Most people miss this part: Cheating isn’t always a conscious choice.

    It can be a nervous system response.

    In this week’s episode of The Deeper Love Podcast, I break down:

    ✨ Why cheating can be a survival response, not a choice

    ✨ How you were already disconnected long before the affair

    ✨ What fawning, freezing, or running look like in love

    ✨ Why logic can’t heal you — but safety can

    ✨ How to stop the cycle in your body, not your head

    This isn’t about excuses.

    It’s about truth.

    It’s about rebuilding without shame.

    And if this lands in your body…

    🕊️ Join me live for my FREE masterclass: Breaking the Cycle of Shame

    📅 Thursday 18th Sept, 8pm BST

    ⚡ Only 100 spots, no replay


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    3 months ago
    15 minutes 8 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    S2#005 – Cheating Doesn’t Happen in a Vacuum

    We’re taught to see cheating as a simple equation: one person betrays, the other is betrayed. End of story. But the truth is never that clean.

    In this episode, I share why an affair is never just about the moment it happened or the person it happened with. It’s about everything that came before - the silences, the unspoken needs, the glass walls that build up between two people - long before a boundary is crossed.

    You’ll hear:

    • Why loneliness inside a relationship is one of the deepest fractures of all

    • How silence and swallowed needs slowly erode connection

    • Why cheating is never about “suddenly making a bad choice”

    • And how understanding this bigger picture can loosen the grip of shame

    If you’ve ever felt like you were screaming silently inside your relationship - or carrying the unbearable weight of guilt after betraying someone you loved - this conversation will help you see what was really happening underneath.

    This isn’t about excusing or blaming. It’s about understanding.Because when you can finally see the truth of what was there, you can stop carrying it alone.



    ✨ Join the Softening Sessions Every other week we gather on Zoom for 90 minutes of release, reflection, and return. This is where shame softens, guilt loosens, and your heart remembers what it feels like to be held. Click here to join.


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    4 months ago
    19 minutes 23 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    S2#004 - Why You Cheated Isn’t the Real Why

    Most women think they know why they cheated.

    “I wasn’t seen. I felt lonely. I felt unwanted. I was bored. He didn’t love me.”

    And while those stories are true on the surface, they are not the root.

    In this episode, I take you deeper. We’ll look at the why beneath the why - the patterns of silencing, perfection, and strength-at-all-costs that began long before the affair.

    The truth is, the affair wasn’t the problem. It was the symptom.

    You’ll hear:

    • Why the real cause of betrayal starts years before the relationship rupture.

    • How childhood survival strategies shaped the way you love.

    • The hidden cost of being “the strong one” in your relationship.

    • Why betrayal is a scream from the part of you that’s been left behind.

    • How to stop asking “Why did I cheat?” and start asking “Where did I leave myself?”

    If you’ve been drowning in shame or searching for answers, this episode will help you see your story in a new way, and begin to free yourself from carrying the wrong “why.”

    You are not broken. You are at the threshold of truth.

    ✨ If this episode speaks to you and you want to explore these patterns in a safe, guided space, join me for the next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

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    4 months ago
    22 minutes 49 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    S2#003 - When You’ve Been Cheated On: Jessica’s Story of Love, Betrayal, and Healing

    What does it really take to rebuild after betrayal?In this episode, I’m joined by fellow love & relationship coach Jessica Hayes, who shares her raw and powerful story of discovering her partner’s infidelity and the journey they took to heal together.

    We talk about:

    • The moment she found out and how it shattered her world

    • Why “just leave” isn’t the right answer for everyone

    • The messy, non-linear process of rebuilding trust

    • The deeper wounds and patterns betrayal can reveal, and how facing them can transform a relationship

    If you’ve been cheated on and you’re wondering if healing is possible - or you’re navigating the complicated emotions of staying - Jessica’s story will give you both hope and clarity.


    🔗 Join my next Softening Session – a 90-minute healing circle for women navigating the shame and confusion after infidelity: alexcroxford.com/softening-sessions

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    Jessica Hayes — Instagram: @jessicahayescoaching | Website: https://www.jessicahayes.com/

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    4 months ago
    1 hour 34 minutes 31 seconds

    The Deeper Love Podcast: For the Woman Healing After Betraying Someone She Loved
    Join Alex Croxford on The Deeper Love Podcast as she guides women healing after betraying someone they loved. Through raw, compassionate conversations, The Deeper Love Podcast dives beneath the affair to the silence, the self-betrayal, and the parts of yourself you’ve forgotten. This is your space to release shame, face the truth, and begin again. With honest stories, intimate interviews, and deep guidance, The Deeper Love Podcast will help you rise from the ashes into love that feels safe, soft, and true.