I remember sitting in front of my therapist, six months after my marriage ended, tears running down my face - “What if no one ever loves me again?”
At that point, I’d been through a divorce, I’d cheated on my husband, and I’d made a mess of dating after it all. I felt broken, like damaged goods.
And underneath that was the deeper fear: that maybe I was unlovable.
In this episode, I share the real story of how I moved from that place into the deepest, most honest love of my life. It’s the story of choosing celibacy after the affair, learning to tell the truth when it scared me, and letting a man see me fully, even when I wanted to hide.
You’ll hear what I discovered about:
Why honesty, not perfection, opens the heart
How pretending to be “easy to love” keeps us disconnected
The difference between intensity and intimacy
What real love actually feels like after the chaos has ended
This is a story about what becomes possible when you finally stop lying to yourself.
If you’ve ever wondered whether love can exist after betrayal, I hope this reminds you that it can.
Real love meets you when you meet yourself.
If you’re ready to start letting love in again after everything you’ve been through, join me in The Softening Sessions - gentle spaces to practise truth, tenderness, and belonging after the rupture of an affair.
You don’t have to share your story, just come, breathe, and be held.
Sign up here → The Softening Sessions
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