On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t make sense on paper but are perfectly designed to shape our becoming.
Submergence is the paradox: we sink in order to rise.
We dissolve in order to become whole.
The invitation isn’t to drown. It’s to surrender.
To be undone. Unnamed. Unraveled.
Because underneath the surface is where transformation gets real.
It’s dark there. Pressurized. Sacred.
But that’s the birthplace of peace—not the manufactured kind, but the raw, rooted kind. The kind that breathes under weight.
Lose control—not as defeat, but as initiation.
Because what if peace isn’t found in holding it all together…
but in letting yourself fall apart on purpose?
On this show, we don’t glorify drowning. We honor the dive.
We talk about the courage it takes to fall beneath the ego. To be still. To be stripped.
And to rise—not perfect, but honest. Not untouched, but transformed.
If you’re feeling like you’re sinking—good.
Maybe that’s exactly where your freedom begins.
Not above. But beneath.
Where control is surrendered
and the real you gets born.
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On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t make sense on paper but are perfectly designed to shape our becoming.
Submergence is the paradox: we sink in order to rise.
We dissolve in order to become whole.
The invitation isn’t to drown. It’s to surrender.
To be undone. Unnamed. Unraveled.
Because underneath the surface is where transformation gets real.
It’s dark there. Pressurized. Sacred.
But that’s the birthplace of peace—not the manufactured kind, but the raw, rooted kind. The kind that breathes under weight.
Lose control—not as defeat, but as initiation.
Because what if peace isn’t found in holding it all together…
but in letting yourself fall apart on purpose?
On this show, we don’t glorify drowning. We honor the dive.
We talk about the courage it takes to fall beneath the ego. To be still. To be stripped.
And to rise—not perfect, but honest. Not untouched, but transformed.
If you’re feeling like you’re sinking—good.
Maybe that’s exactly where your freedom begins.
Not above. But beneath.
Where control is surrendered
and the real you gets born.
Episode 24 Part 1 Special Guest: Jamar Ryle "I was trying to fill that void", Honesty Open-minded Willingness
The Lose Control Podcast
1 hour 13 minutes
1 year ago
Episode 24 Part 1 Special Guest: Jamar Ryle "I was trying to fill that void", Honesty Open-minded Willingness
Jamar’s odyssey to recovery commenced on March 17th, 2018, a date etched in his memory as the beginning of a profound transformation. His narrative is a harrowing tapestry woven with threads of deep-seated depression, excruciating pain, and an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and worthlessness. These emotions, intertwined with unmanageability, selfishness, and self-seeking behaviors, propelled him into an abyss of darkness. Jamar’s struggle with addiction was punctuated by harrowing episodes of suicidal ideation, seething rage, and a relentless cycle of denial and justification.
Jamar’s descent into substance use began at the tender age of 13 or 14. The very first encounter with a substance was a revelation, an intoxicating escape from a reality he found unbearable. Drugs, and any other means of obliterating his consciousness, swiftly became his paramount obsession. Despite not being overtly rebellious, Jamar was a soul in turmoil, grappling with the scars of abandonment and other personal demons. He fulfilled his obligations, such as attending school, but the hours after school became a sanctuary for his substance use.
Marijuana was his initial refuge, but as his addiction spiraled, he resorted to any substance he could procure.
Today, Jamar stands as a beacon of hope, a living testament to the possibility of recovery and the relentless journey it entails. No longer confined to a self-imposed prison, he embraces life with the gratitude of a recovering addict. His story is a powerful testament to the indomitable strength and resilience required to conquer addiction and rediscover hope and purpose in recovery.
The Lose Control Podcast
On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t make sense on paper but are perfectly designed to shape our becoming.
Submergence is the paradox: we sink in order to rise.
We dissolve in order to become whole.
The invitation isn’t to drown. It’s to surrender.
To be undone. Unnamed. Unraveled.
Because underneath the surface is where transformation gets real.
It’s dark there. Pressurized. Sacred.
But that’s the birthplace of peace—not the manufactured kind, but the raw, rooted kind. The kind that breathes under weight.
Lose control—not as defeat, but as initiation.
Because what if peace isn’t found in holding it all together…
but in letting yourself fall apart on purpose?
On this show, we don’t glorify drowning. We honor the dive.
We talk about the courage it takes to fall beneath the ego. To be still. To be stripped.
And to rise—not perfect, but honest. Not untouched, but transformed.
If you’re feeling like you’re sinking—good.
Maybe that’s exactly where your freedom begins.
Not above. But beneath.
Where control is surrendered
and the real you gets born.
