There were so many times I wished I could trade in my life for a different one.
As a kid, I fantasized about being a world-class tennis player, a celebrity, a famous speaker — anything that would make me liked, adored, loved. Because the truth was, I had no friends. I was invisible. Bullied. Alone.
In this vulnerable episode of Dear Christiano, I reflect on how childhood fantasies and people-pleasing shaped my early years, and the lifelong process of peeling back the layers to finally accept the hand I was given — and learn how to play it on my own terms.
✨ This episode explores:
– The fantasies that masked childhood pain
– Why people-pleasing felt safer than authenticity
– The truth about feeling unworthy of being yourself
– How healing is ongoing, not a destination
– Why freedom comes from changing the game, not wishing for new cards
If you’ve ever caught yourself longing for a different life, this is your reminder: your story, your cards, your journey — they’re enough.💌 Subscribe for weekly queer reflections on healing, identity, and radical self-compassion.
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This is not just a meditation.This is a reclamation.This is a vow to live your queerness as holy, unapologetic, and revolutionary.In this deep 3-part guided journey, you’ll awaken the fire of rebellion that lives inside you — not as chaos, but as sacred truth. You’ll step into your queer power, meet your Sacred Rebel Self, and return ready to live your daily life as proof that queerness itself is divine.💫 In this meditation, you will:🌈 Awaken the fire of queer rebellion in your body🌈 Meet and merge with your Sacred Rebel Self🌈 Break the chains of shame, silence, and conformity🌈 Declare your existence as resistance🌈 Return to daily life embodying queer sovereignty and freedomThis is for every LGBTQIA+ soul who has ever been told to dim their light, shrink their truth, or soften their voice.Your life is not a mistake.Your queerness is not a burden.Your existence is a sacred rebellion.Take a breath. Step into the temple.And remember: you are not just living — you are liberating.🌟 Subscribe for more queer meditations + healing journeys🌐 Access my full queer meditation library inside Queer Quest PRO: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/
Internalized homophobia and transphobia are the invisible chains many LGBTQIA+ people carry. In this 4-part series, Christiano Green unpacks what it means to heal from these internalized voices of shame, fear, and unworthiness — and how to step into queer joy and liberation.
You’ll learn how these patterns show up in our lives, how to break the cycle with compassion and community, and why embracing queer joy is one of the most powerful acts of resistance we have.
If you’ve ever struggled with feeling “not enough” as a queer person, this episode will help you reclaim your worth, your joy, and your freedom.
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To the outside world, you may look raw, open, and unafraid to share your truth. But inside, you know there’s always another layer you’re struggling to reach.
In this intimate episode of Dear Christiano, queer coach and storyteller Christiano Green reflects on the deeply personal, non-linear process of vulnerability. From growing up in a family that never talked about emotions, to learning how queerness teaches us to hide, Christiano explores why vulnerability can feel exhausting — and how to approach it with more compassion and less shame.
✨ This episode explores:
– Why vulnerability is never as simple as it looks from the outside
– The role of family silence and queer conditioning in bottling emotions
– How comparison makes vulnerability harder
– Why working one layer at a time is powerful enough
– Reframing vulnerability as liberation, not pressure
This is a love letter to anyone who has ever felt “blocked” in their vulnerability. You’re not behind. You’re not broken. Your journey is deeply personal — and it’s enough.
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What if you could step through a doorway in time and meet the version of you who already made it?The one who is free. The one who is thriving. The one who carries no shame, only wholeness.This deep, introspective queer meditation will guide you into a sacred space where you’ll meet your future queer self face-to-face — to receive wisdom, love, and courage for the journey you’re on right now.In this practice, you’ll:🌈 Release the old narratives of shame and fear🌈 Step into a vision of your highest queer self🌈 Receive guidance, healing, and belonging from the future you🌈 Anchor this energy into your present momentThis is more than a meditation — it’s a queer healing journey, a time-traveling embrace of the person you are becoming.Take your time. Breathe deeply. Let your future self remind you:💫 You are already becoming. You are already enough. You are already whole.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest for more guided meditations, healing journeys, and queer empowerment practices.📲 Access ALL of my queer meditations + transformational programs inside Queer Quest PRO https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/
Too many queer people are stuck in survival mode — constantly on guard, exhausted, and unable to fully rest. In this episode, Christiano Green unpacks how survival mode shows up in our lives, what it does to our nervous system, and how we can begin the journey toward thriving.
We’ll cover practical tools for regulation, the importance of reclaiming rest, and the revolutionary power of queer joy. Thriving is not just about personal healing — it’s about resistance, liberation, and creating new possibilities for our community.
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Everyone you meet holds a different version of you.
Family, friends, strangers — they all filter you through their own lens, shaped by their stories, wounds, and expectations. That means there are thousands of versions of you out there… but none of them are the full truth.
In this heartfelt episode of Dear Christiano, queer coach and storyteller Christiano Green explores what it means to release the pressure of managing other people’s perceptions — and to focus instead on the version of you that is most authentic, most whole, and most alive.
✨ Inside this episode:
– Why people will always see different versions of you
– How approval-seeking and performance drain queer lives
– What it means to protect your peace without guilt
– Choosing authenticity as liberation
– Living brighter when you stop carrying their version of you
This is a love letter to anyone who feels misunderstood, miscast, or mislabeled — and a reminder that your freedom begins when you stop managing their story, and start living your own.
🎴 Life doesn’t always deal you the cards you want — but it always gives you the cards you need.In this deeply introspective queer guided meditation, you’ll be invited to explore the hand life has dealt you — the identity you carry, the experiences you’ve endured, the challenges and blessings you’ve faced — and discover how to play it with courage, creativity, and authenticity.Through rich visualization, mindful breathing, and queer-centered healing language, this meditation will help you:✨ Release resentment toward your past✨ Reclaim your agency in the present moment✨ See your resilience as a gift, not a burden✨ Turn your lived experience into a source of pride and leadershipWhether you’ve faced rejection, shame, loss, or moments where you’ve questioned your worth — this meditation will guide you into acceptance, empowerment, and a deeper trust in your path.💖 This is your invitation to stop waiting for the “perfect hand” and start playing the one you have — fully, fiercely, and unapologetically.🎧 Best experienced with headphones, in a quiet space, and an open heart.💌 Subscribe for weekly queer-centered reflections on identity, emotional wellness, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.
Supporting your LGBTQ+ friends authentically means more than just accepting them — it’s about showing up, listening, and acting in ways that make them feel safe and seen. In this 4-part Queer Quest Podcast series, Christiano Green breaks down how to be a friend who truly matters.
From listening without making it about you, to respecting identity at all times, to showing up consistently and speaking out when it’s uncomfortable — this episode is a guide to real allyship.
Perfect for allies who want to improve their support, and for LGBTQ+ people who want to share a resource with their friends, this conversation is honest, practical, and rooted in love.
💌 Subscribe for weekly queer-centered reflections on identity, emotional wellness, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.
Running multiple businesses sounds glamorous — until you’re scrubbing cigarette smoke out of the walls two hours before your next Airbnb guests arrive… all while juggling client calls and recording podcasts.
In this episode of Dear Christiano, queer transformation coach and entrepreneur Christiano Green pulls back the curtain on the real, unfiltered truth about being a queerpreneur. From leaving a high-paying corporate role leading 300 people to moving to Bali to start fresh, Christiano shares how he built not one, but two thriving businesses — a queer-focused coaching practice and a growing Airbnb portfolio with his partner.
✨ In this episode, you’ll hear:
– The leap from corporate leadership to entrepreneurship
– Why burnout made staying riskier than leaving
– How moving to Bali cut expenses by 75% and created space to heal and build
– The story behind launching an Airbnb business with his partner
– The reality of balancing coaching clients, content creation, and urgent property issues
– Why “pressure is a privilege,” but not without its toll
Whether you’re building your first side hustle, dreaming of leaving your 9-to-5, or already running your own business, this episode is a candid, inspiring reminder that success is rarely as tidy as it looks on Instagram.
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This is not just a meditation — it's a sacred homecoming for every queer soul who's ever been haunted by shame.In this deep, soul-touching journey, we gently hold the ways shame shows up at the worst possible times — and instead of spiraling, we learn to alchemize it into a source of truth, compassion, and queer power.You’ll move through three powerful phases:Meeting Shame in the Body — with tenderness and truth.Reframing the Shame Story — learning how shame was a survival tool, not your identity.Alchemising Shame into Queer Sovereignty — reclaiming your radiant, sacred self.Whether you're healing from religious trauma, internalised homophobia, transphobia, rejection from family, or the silent burdens of being “too much” or “not enough,” this meditation is for you.Let this be your safe space to soften.To reparent the younger you.To stop running.To start remembering.💫 Created by Queer Quest for LGBTQIA+ souls on a healing journey.🔔 Subscribe for more meditations, healing tools, and queer empowerment:🕯️ Best experienced with headphones, candles, and an open heart.👇 Drop a comment if this spoke to your soul — we read every one.
What are the stages of queer healing? In this soulful, honest, and empowering episode, Christiano Green walks us through the 18-stage spiral roadmap of LGBTQ+ healing — from breakdown and identity loss to spiritual embodiment and queer joy.
Drawn from the free guide The Journey to Queer Healing, this conversation explores everything from inner child work and boundary setting to ancestral connection and radical self-trust. Perfect for queer folks who are healing from trauma, reclaiming their truth, or leading others in love.
🧡 Subscribe for weekly videos on queer healing, identity, emotional liberation, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.
Can you be a fit, healed, empowered queer human — and still binge sugar in a shame spiral?
In this honest and deeply human episode of Dear Christiano, queer coach Christiano Green reflects on a recent experience that triggered old patterns of shame, perfectionism, and self-judgment. From emotional eating to body image, Christiano explores what it means to heal while still being messy — and why duality is not a failure, but a feature of growth.
✨ This episode explores:
– Why queer people often carry shame that doesn’t belong to them
– The link between food, feelings, and worthiness
– How coaches and “healers” still face real emotional spirals
– What it means to allow conflicting emotions without guilt
– How to stop performing healing and start embodying truth
If you’ve ever felt like you’re not allowed to fall apart because of how others see you — this one is for you.
🎧 Listen now. Healing is not perfection. It’s presence.
🧡 Subscribe for weekly videos on queer healing, identity, emotional liberation, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.
Letting Go of the Need to Push Through and Finally Giving Yourself Time to HealIn a world that demands productivity, perfection, and constant performance — this guided meditation is a sacred rebellion.This journey invites you into the deep, slow waters of queer healing.It’s for the moments when you’re tired of pretending you’re okay.For the seasons when pushing through just isn’t going to cut it anymore.And for the parts of you that are still aching to be heard, held, and allowed to rest.Together, we’ll explore:🌿 Letting go of urgency and internalized pressure🌈 Releasing shame around needing time, space, and softness🌀 Returning to your body’s sacred rhythm💗 Meeting the exhausted parts of you with compassion🔮 Becoming the healer you always neededWhether you’re burned out, grieving, in transition, or just quietly unraveling — this meditation is a permission slip.You don’t have to fix anything today.You just have to breathe.You just have to be.👉 This is part of the Queer Quest PRO series: a sanctuary of healing for LGBTQIA+ souls on the journey of self-discovery, emotional release, and sacred embodiment.🎧 Put on your headphones. Press play. Come home to yourself.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.#QueerHealing #LGBTQSupport #FamilyWounds
Coming out is not a single moment — it’s a lifelong journey of courage, identity, and self-love. In this episode, Christiano Green takes you through the raw, real, and powerful coming out stories that will leave you breathless, inspired, and seen.From the first time we admit our truth to ourselves, to the terrifying moment we say it out loud to the world… from coming out later in life to finding chosen family and community after rejection — this episode is for every queer person, at every stage of their becoming.You’ll hear Christiano’s personal stories, the psychology behind delayed coming out, awkward and hilarious real-life moments, and a deep reminder that your story is valid — whether it’s loud and proud or whispered into the dark.This isn’t just about being LGBTQIA+ — it’s about being fully you.Whether you're out, closeted, questioning, or still healing — this episode is a permission slip to be exactly who you are.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.#QueerHealing #LGBTQSupport #FamilyWounds
What happens when you're committed to healing — but still find yourself spiraling, overwhelmed, and energetically drained?
In this solo episode of Dear Christiano, queer transformation coach Christiano Green shares a raw and relatable letter to himself about the emotional crash that sometimes follows deep inner growth. If you're a queer person who's ever felt shame around rest, guilt around doing nothing, or frustration with your own sensitivity — this is the episode for you.
✨ Topics include:
– The emotional rollercoaster of queer healing
– The myth of constant productivity
– How rest can be a radical act of self-love
– Navigating overstimulation as an empath or HSP
– Reclaiming your peace through presence
This is not your average self-help podcast.
This is healing with honesty, softness, and soul.
🎧 Tune in now — and remember: spiraling isn’t failure. It’s just another layer of coming home.
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There comes a time in every queer soul’s journey when we realize:
we may never be fully understood by the people who raised us.And…
we get to let go anyway.This powerful guided meditation is a healing journey through grief, release, and reclamation.
It’s for every LGBTQIA+ person who’s ever twisted themselves to fit their family’s expectations — and is ready to come home to truth, clarity, and deep queer peace.💔 In this meditation, you will:
– Name and honor the ache of wanting to be seen– Meet the inner child still waiting for understanding– Grieve the love and validation that never arrived– Burn the myth of “if they understood me, they’d love me”– Reclaim your emotional autonomy and power– Build the sanctuary of self that you always needed– Walk forward no longer waiting — but living in your full truth🧘🏽♂️ This is not a quick fix.
This is a soul-clearing ceremony.If you’ve ever asked:“Why can’t they just accept me for who I am?”This is your sacred answer.Perfect for queer healing journeys, inner child work, reparenting practices, or post-therapy or integration work.🌈Join us inside Queer Quest PRO: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro
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What does it mean to be truly seen in a world that still erases, distorts, or sidelines queer lives? In this 4-part solo episode of The Queer Quest Podcast, host Christiano Green unpacks the cultural and emotional weight of queer representation in media — and why it still matters now more than ever.
Across this journey, you’ll explore:
The difference between visibility and being truly seen
How tokenism and trauma-only narratives harm queer mental health
Why queer authorship and casting matters
The stories that are still missing — and who gets left out
And the revolutionary power of queer joy, complexity, and creation
Part personal story, part cultural call-to-action, and part visionary manifesto, this episode is for every queer person who’s ever felt invisible — and every ally who wants to understand why that matters.
You’ll walk away inspired, affirmed, and ready to reclaim your own narrative.🧡 Subscribe for more weekly reflections, and bonus meditations on queer healing, identity, and growth.🔔 New videos 3 times per week: Personal diary entries, queer spirituality, emotional liberation, and more.🌈 Embark on a remarkable self discovery journey with Queer Quest PRO at https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/ diving deep into the importance of community and personal growth. Explore the transformative power of self discovery and mindfulness as you navigate life's journey. Discover the empowerment that comes from embracing your authentic self on this healing journey.🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.#QueerHealing #LGBTQSupport #FamilyWounds
In this vulnerable solo episode of Dear Christiano, on The Queer Quest Podcast, queer transformation coach and storyteller Christiano Green shares a personal letter to himself — exploring the pain, love, and emotional complexity of family as a queer person.
If you’ve ever felt unseen by your family, or struggled to reconcile love with boundaries, this episode will speak to your soul.
You’ll hear Christiano reflect on:
– The invisible work queer people do to survive family
– Why healing can trigger those closest to us
– How to move forward when others don’t (or can’t) understand
– Loving people for who they are — without betraying yourself
This is for anyone in the LGBTQIA+ community doing the hard work of breaking cycles and returning to wholeness.
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🌈 Embark on a remarkable self discovery journey with Queer Quest PRO at https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/ diving deep into the importance of community and personal growth. Explore the transformative power of self discovery and mindfulness as you navigate life's journey. Discover the empowerment that comes from embracing your authentic self on this healing journey.🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquest.vip/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.
What if you could see yourself clearly — beyond the shame, survival, and distortion?What if you could meet your truest queer self… and fall in love?This powerful guided meditation is a sacred journey into deep self-recognition, emotional healing, and queer embodiment. In this three-part immersive experience, you’ll move through the masks you’ve worn, step into your full truth, and return home to your sacred self — radiant, real, and fully seen.💫 In this meditation, you will:– Strip away old personas and masks of survival– Meet your truest, most radiant queer self– Activate your Queer Temple of Expression– Reclaim your softness, power, fluidity, and voice– Integrate your sacred queer self into everyday life– Walk forward no longer hiding, but living– Anchor a powerful homecoming into your body and spiritThis experience is for every LGBTQIA+ soul ready to stop performing…and start becoming.✨ Whether you’ve been on a deep healing journey, experienced a recent awakening, or simply feel ready to see yourself without filters — this is your mirror.Your permission.Your queer remembering.🎧 Use this meditation after inner work, journaling, therapy, plant medicine journeys, or during Pride Month as a sacred ritual of self-affirmation.🔔 Subscribe for more queer meditations, healing rituals, and soul-centered content.🌈 Join Queer Quest PRO to access the full Queer Wellness Wheel: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/