The Roman Republic didn’t fall to an army. It fell to a story. And Julius Caesar wrote it.
This is the first episode exploring how Roman writers wielded language as a weapon during the Republic’s collapse. Next week: poets and philosophers navigating imperial Rome. Today: four voices that shaped power itself.
CAESAR: THE GENERAL WHO WROTE HIS OWN MYTH
Picture Rome, 52 BCE. Rumors swirl about Caesar’s growing power in Gaul. Then his *Commentaries* arrive—not gossip, but Caesar’s own account. Written in third person.
“Caesar decided to attack.” “Caesar showed mercy.”
Brilliant. It sounds objective, like a neutral historian documenting his greatness. But Caesar controls every word.
When describing the Helvetii migration, he writes: “Caesar, fearing devastation, decided it was necessary to prevent their passage.” He frames aggression as defense. Romans see him as protector, not conqueror.
Darker still: when describing massacres, he uses clinical language. “It was necessary.” “No other choice.” Violence becomes inevitable. You finish reading convinced Caesar did what any reasonable commander would do.
He wasn’t writing history—he was making it. By the time the Senate realized his danger, Romans already believed in Caesar the Hero. You can’t fight a legend with a committee.
CICERO: THE VOICE SCREAMING INTO THE VOID
If Caesar built myths, Cicero defended the Republic. With only words.
In 63 BCE, he exposed Catiline’s conspiracy with devastating speeches: *“How long, O Catiline, will you abuse our patience?”* Not a question—an accusation. The Senate erupts. Catiline flees. The Republic is saved by a speech.
But Cicero’s weapon only works if people believe in the system. By the 40s BCE, they don’t.
His 900+ private letters reveal a man watching his world collapse. When Caesar crosses the Rubicon, Cicero is paralyzed: *“If I support Pompey, I risk Caesar’s vengeance. If I stay silent, I betray everything.”*
After Caesar’s assassination, Cicero delivers the *Philippics* against Mark Antony—his final stand. Antony orders his execution. Soldiers display Cicero’s severed head and hands in the Forum. The Republic’s greatest voice, literally silenced.
SUETONIUS: WRITING THE AUTOPSY
150 years later, Suetonius asks: *Why couldn’t the Republic contain Caesar?*
He describes Caesar’s final months—dictator for life, image on coins, golden Senate throne. Then the fatal moment: senators arrive with honors. Caesar doesn’t stand. To Romans, this was kingship. The Republic was founded on overthrowing kings.
On the Ides of March, they stab him 23 times. But killing the man doesn’t kill the myth. Civil war follows. Augustus becomes emperor. The Republic never returns.
Suetonius understands: *Republics die slowly, then all at once, when ambition outgrows institutions.*
MARCUS AURELIUS: THE PHILOSOPHER KING
Centuries later, Marcus Aurelius wrestles with power in his *Meditations*—private journals never meant for publication.
*“If it is not right, do not do it. If it is not true, do not say it.”*
He’s the most powerful man alive, reminding himself power is illusion. *“Soon you will be dust.”*
Yet even he fails. He persecutes Christians. Names his son Commodus as successor—one of Rome’s worst emperors. The philosopher-king couldn’t escape empire’s machinery.
CONCLUSION
Four writers. One question: *Can republics survive their own success?*
Rome’s answer was no. But their tool—political writing—is still ours. Every campaign memoir, every tweet follows their 2,000-year-old playbook.
**After the New Year: Virgil’s propaganda epic, Ovid’s dangerous poetry, Seneca advising tyrants, Juvenal’s savage satires. If today was how writing shaped politics, next week is how politics shaped what could—and couldn’t—be written.
What happens when history's greatest minds fall completely, irrevocably in love? When passion meets genius, when devotion transcends death itself?
In this episode, we explore four extraordinary love stories that span more than a century of history—from revolutionary Paris to Victorian London, from Regency England to Belle Époque France. These aren't fairy tales. These are real people who loved so deeply that their relationships transformed not just their lives, but literature and history itself.
Imagine Napoleon Bonaparte, conqueror of Europe, reduced to a lovesick boy writing desperate letters from the battlefield. Picture a dying young poet pouring his final passions into verses that would outlive him by centuries. Witness an invalid woman confined to her room for years, suddenly finding the courage to walk away from everything she knew for love. Meet two scientists who found in each other not just romance, but a partnership that would change our understanding of the universe.
Through their actual love letters—raw, vulnerable, sometimes shocking in their intensity—we'll discover how love became the spark for some of history's greatest creative achievements. We'll read the poetry inspired by passion, the letters written in desperation and devotion, the words that reveal what these brilliant minds truly felt when their hearts were on fire.
But this isn't just a story about falling in love. It's about what happens after. How does love endure through separation, illness, and even death? What does it mean to remain devoted when everything conspires against you? These four couples faced trials that would have broken lesser loves—war, poverty, disease, societal disapproval, tragic early death. Yet their devotion never wavered.
From Napoleon's deathbed whisper to a poet's final request, from secret sonnets to decades of solitary scientific work carried on in memory of a lost partner—these stories show us love in its most powerful forms. Love as muse. Love as eternal devotion.
And in our modern world of instant messages and dating apps, perhaps these historical lovers have something to teach us. About taking time. About expressing ourselves fully. About building something that lasts.
Join us for an uplifting journey through some of history's most beautiful love stories. You'll laugh, you might cry, and you'll definitely want to write a love letter afterward.
Because some loves are so powerful, they echo across centuries. Some devotions are so complete, they change the world.
This is their story.
The Price of the Rebel: What Happens When Everyone's a Revolutionary
Che Guevara's face on t-shirts at Urban Outfitters. Apple selling computers with images of Gandhi and MLK. Every other Instagram bio: "Rebel." "Disruptor." "Resistance."
We worship the rebel. It's become our highest virtue, our most aspirational identity. To be called a conformist is an insult. To be called a rebel is a badge of honor.
But here's what we don't talk about: What happens when rebellion stops being a last resort and becomes an identity? When everyone's a rebel, who's actually holding society together?
In this episode, we dive into the uncomfortable costs of our rebellion-obsessed culture—the costs hidden behind the romantic narratives of freedom and authenticity.
Who Really Pays?
Through powerful examples from literature and history, we explore how the rebel often becomes what they fight. How the idealistic revolutionary transforms into the corrupt oligarch. How the French Revolution's promise of liberty became the Reign of Terror, executing thousands. How the detective who cleans up corruption becomes corrupted himself.
We examine the wreckage left behind: the children of the "free love" generation raised by single mothers after rebel fathers disappeared. The movements like Occupy Wall Street that made noise but built nothing. The generational conflicts that echo through decades because someone's rebellion became someone else's inherited trauma.
The Question Nobody Asks
Who's maintaining the water treatment plants while everyone's "disrupting"? Who's teaching the children? Who's showing up to do the boring, essential work that keeps civilization functioning?
We've made rebellion heroic and duty shameful. But maybe—just maybe—the parent who sacrifices for their children is living more authentically than the rebel who abandons responsibility to "find themselves."
The Paradox
Here's the twist: we absolutely need rebels. Abolitionists, suffragettes, civil rights activists changed the world. But they had specific goals, paid real costs, and knew the difference between rebellion as sacrifice and rebellion as brand.
Martin Luther King Jr. went to jail and was assassinated. Today's rebels put "Resistance" in their bio and risk nothing.
Why This Matters Now
A society where everyone's a rebel descends into chaos. The rebel needs the conformist. The disruptor needs the maintainer. Without people willing to fulfill unglamorous roles, there's no civilization—just a war of all against all.
This episode will challenge you if you consider yourself a rebel, a disruptor, someone who questions everything. It asks the questions we're afraid to ask:
We've tipped the balance. We've made rebellion the only virtue. And in doing so, we might be destroying the very foundations that make freedom possible.
This isn't a defense of blind conformity or unjust systems. It's a reckoning with what we've lost in our worship of disruption: the dignity of duty, the honor of showing up, the quiet heroism of those who maintain rather than destroy.
Because rebellion isn't an identity. It's a cost. A sacrifice. And if you're not willing to count that cost, you're not a rebel—you're just a consumer wearing a costume.
Ready to question everything you thought about being a rebel?
Press play.
The Tyranny of Memory
There's a photograph from 1937 that captures something unsettling: Joseph Stalin walking beside Nikolai Yezhov along the Moscow-Volga Canal. Three years later, Yezhov was executed—and in the photograph, he simply vanished. Airbrushed out. Replaced by water. As if he had never existed at all.
This episode explores one of humanity's most profound paradoxes: memory is both what liberates us and what imprisons us.
Milan Kundera wrote that "the struggle of man against power is the struggle of memory against forgetting." But he also warned: "We must never allow the future to collapse under the burden of memory." So which is it? Should we remember or forget?
We examine three national approaches to traumatic history: Germany's aggressive memorialization of the Holocaust, Japan's selective minimization of wartime atrocities, and the Soviet Union's forced silence about the gulags—followed by the fractured, contradictory memories that emerged after the collapse. Through Alexander Solzhenitsyn's The Gulag Archipelago and Svetlana Alexievich's Second-Hand Time, we see that preserved memory isn't the same as processed memory.
From Elie Wiesel's insistence that "to forget the dead would be akin to killing them a second time" to historian David Rieff's argument that societies sometimes must forget to move forward, we navigate the impossible tension between honoring the past and being imprisoned by it.
Literature helps us understand what politics cannot. Gabriel García Márquez shows us forgetting as liberation. Virginia Woolf reveals memory as both beauty and destruction. Susan Sontag cuts to the truth: collective memory isn't remembering—it's deciding what to remember and how.
The Israel-Palestine conflict demonstrates how competing memories of the same history can prevent any resolution. The tyranny isn't in memory itself—it's in refusing to examine whose memory, chosen how, preserved for what purpose.
This episode doesn't offer easy answers. Instead, it invites you to recognize that memory is a story we tell ourselves—and like all stories, it requires both art and ethics. The art is in the selection. The ethics is in the honesty.
When Stalin erased his enemies from photographs, he thought he was controlling the past. But the erasure reveals the eraser. The same is true in our own lives. What we choose to remember—and what we choose to forget—reveals who we are.
Episode length: 18-20 minutes
Topics: Memory, history, collective trauma, literature, political philosophy
Featured works: Milan Kundera, Alexander Solzhenitsyn, Svetlana Alexievich, Elie Wiesel, Hannah Arendt, Gabriel García Márquez, Susan Sontag
In every age, there’s a currency that defines the soul of a people.
Gold, honor, faith, freedom — once they held weight.
Today, our currency is lighter. It costs nothing to make and everything to spend.
It’s the excuse.
In this episode, The Excuse Economy, we explore the moral and cultural decay that follows when blame becomes a way of life. From the fires of ancient Rome to the excuses of modern politics and education, the pattern is clear: when we stop owning our failures, we lose the ability to grow.
The story begins with Nero, who rebuilt Rome in his own image after the Great Fire of 64 A.D. and blamed the Christians to preserve his name. Two millennia later, the same impulse persists — reshaping ruin, rebranding guilt, and finding new scapegoats to bear the weight of our own errors.
Through the lens of Shakespeare’s Macbeth, Plautus’ biting comedy, and Flaubert’s disillusioned Emma Bovary, the episode traces how human beings have always dressed failure in fine language. From the fate-blaming kings of tragedy to the self-justifying dreamers of modernity, the art of the excuse has evolved, but never disappeared.
Then the focus shifts closer to home:
Even the absurd has its lesson: John Belushi’s frantic plea in The Blues Brothers — “It wasn’t my fault! I ran out of gas! There was an earthquake! Locusts!” — echoes the same human instinct that Nero, Macbeth, and Emma Bovary shared: the desperate need to explain rather than atone.
But The Excuse Economy isn’t a sermon of despair.
In its final act, we turn to those who never hid behind excuses — Lincoln, Douglass, Helen Keller, and the countless unnamed souls who endured quietly and rose above circumstance. They remind us that strength is not born of ease but of endurance, and that confession is not weakness, but power.
Because maybe the quiet revolution begins not with new ideas, but with old words:
“I was wrong.”
A reflection on history, conscience, and the lost virtue of responsibility — The Excuse Economy is a reminder that honesty is still the most valuable currency of all.
Episode Summary: “The Noise and the Silence” — The T.O.P. Podcast with Michael DiMatteo
What if the greatest threat to modern life isn’t hatred, ignorance, or greed — but noise?
In this episode of The T.O.P. Podcast, Michael DiMatteo explores the quiet catastrophe of the modern age: our inability to sit still, to be alone, and to listen. Drawing from philosophy, history, and literature, The Noise and the Silence journeys from the deserts of the ancients to the digital hum of the present, asking whether humanity has lost the ability to hear itself think.
From Blaise Pascal’s haunting insight — that all of man’s problems stem from his inability to sit quietly in a room — to Seneca’s Stoic reflections on presence, the episode traces a lineage of thinkers who viewed silence not as absence, but as the origin of wisdom. Henry David Thoreau at Walden Pond sought it deliberately; Cicero watched a Roman Republic collapse beneath “clamor without reason”; and Beethoven, composing in total deafness, proved that silence could be the very birthplace of transcendence.
We meet T.S. Eliot’s hollow men, Søren Kierkegaard’s restless public, and finally, Rumi’s divine whisper — each revealing how civilization’s loudest moments often conceal its deepest emptiness. Yet, amidst the chaos, a new understanding emerges: silence is not retreat, but resistance.
In an era of constant stimulation — where our phones glow late into the night and our minds boil with unending input — even the act of driving to work without the radio on can become an act of rebellion. Schools are beginning to rediscover this truth, introducing moments of meditation before lessons begin, teaching children to breathe before they act — to steady the mind before unleashing it. Science, at last, is confirming what philosophy has known for centuries: calm minds learn better, remember more, and lash out less.
Michael challenges listeners to rediscover that quiet magic in their own thoughts — the voice that creativity and conscience share — the voice that can’t be heard above the world’s clamor. There is wisdom waiting, he suggests, if we dare to sit with our own silence long enough to let it speak.
Featuring:
Blaise Pascal, Seneca, Henry David Thoreau, Cicero, Isaac Newton, Ludwig van Beethoven, T.S. Eliot, Søren Kierkegaard, and Rumi.
Key themes: the art of stillness, the loss of reflection in a digital age, the education of the soul through silence, and the courage to listen when the world demands noise.
“There is a kind of quiet magic in your own thoughts — if you allow them to speak to you.”
(Approx. 24 minutes. Episode recorded and produced by Triple Option Publishing. Available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Substack.)
From clay tablets to quantum equations, every generation has asked the same question: What is life?
In this episode of The T.O.P. Podcast, Michael DiMatteo invites you on a journey across civilizations and centuries — from the first storytellers of Mesopotamia to the philosophers of Athens, from Laozi’s calm river of existence to Einstein’s cosmic wonder. It is a conversation that began before philosophy had a name and still echoes in the noise of our digital world.
Life, says each voice, carries a different meaning. For Socrates, it was a test of integrity. For Aristotle, the flourishing of the mind. Schopenhauer saw suffering; Nietzsche saw the will to overcome. Viktor Frankl found purpose in the ashes of Auschwitz, proving that even in horror, the human spirit can choose meaning. Virginia Woolf painted life as consciousness itself — a luminous halo of thought and feeling. Einstein and Hawking turned curiosity into faith; Sagan called us “a way for the universe to know itself.”
Later reformers reminded us that meaning must also be lived. Mother Teresa saw it in service — in small things done with great love. Martin Luther King Jr. called it moral courage — the choice to love in the face of hate. Gandhi turned struggle into compassion. Steve Jobs fused art and innovation, faith and creation.
And now — us. We text where once we spoke. We meet on Zoom where once we shook hands. We lose ourselves in virtual worlds, in scrolling feeds, in working from home with little human touch. It makes one wonder: is that living, or simply life?
Through history, art, science, and faith, this episode traces the mosaic of human meaning — from balance to bravery, from consciousness to compassion. The question has never changed, but our answers reveal who we are.
So tonight, join the conversation. Listen across time. And when the echoes fade, ask yourself the oldest question anew:
If all of history could hear you now… how would you finish the sentence?
Life is…
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Suggested Reading & Listening:
Frankl – Man’s Search for Meaning · Woolf – A Room of One’s Own · Laozi – Tao Te Ching · Camus – The Myth of Sisyphus · Hawking – A Brief History of Time
How courage became content — and why meaning still matters.
Once, every culture had its own idea of the hero — a figure who stood against chaos, carried the weight of others, and dared to believe that one life could make a difference. But somewhere along the way, heroism lost its footing. The divine grew quiet. The moral center blurred. And the heroic became something we watched, not something we lived.
In this episode of the T.O.P. Podcast, Michael DiMatteo traces the long arc of heroism across the world — from Gilgamesh and Arjuna, to Sundiata Keita of Mali, Joan of Arc, and Harriet Tubman. Each one, in their own language and time, faced the same question: what is courage when the world no longer believes in it?
From the ancient epics to modern disillusionment, DiMatteo explores how the heroic once bound humanity to the sacred — and how the modern age stripped it bare.
Reason replaced reverence.
Systems replaced sacrifice.
And soon, courage became content — a story we consume, not one we live.
Through the eyes of his own characters, Flavius Fettotempi and Ramazan, DiMatteo reflects on what remains of heroism today. Both men act without applause, fight without reward, and believe even when belief seems impossible. They remind us that courage, in its truest form, asks for nothing — not victory, not recognition, only conviction.
The End of Heroism isn’t an elegy — it’s a mirror. It asks us to look at who we are, what we admire, and what we’ve forgotten. Because perhaps the final act of heroism isn’t to conquer or to die, but to keep faith when the world has moved on.
Suggested Reading
The Epic of Gilgamesh
The Mahabharata
The Romance of the Three Kingdoms
The Song of Sundiata
The Life of Joan of Arc
Harriet Tubman: The Road to Freedom
Things Fall Apart – Chinua Achebe
On Heroes and Hero-Worship – Thomas Carlyle
Thus Spoke Zarathustra – Friedrich Nietzsche
All the King’s Men – Robert Penn Warren
In this episode of the Triple Option Podcast, Michael DiMatteo turns his attention to one of life’s quietest and most enduring mysteries — friendship.
Why do some friendships last a lifetime, while others fade into memory?
Why does it hurt so much to be forgotten?
And what does it really mean to be known by another person?
Through literature, history, and lived experience, The Ties That Hold explores the many faces of friendship — its birth in Renaissance humanism, its moral depth in Chinese and African philosophy, its endurance in poetry and film, and its fragile persistence in our modern, transient lives.
From Aristotle and Montaigne to Erasmus, Luther, and Pico della Mirandola, the episode begins in Europe’s age of rediscovery, when friendship was seen as the mirror of virtue.
But it soon widens its gaze:
In China, Confucius taught that friendship was moral companionship — a path toward self-cultivation.
In Africa, the wisdom of Ubuntu declared, “I am because we are.”
In Latin America, José Martí and Gabriela Mistral found in friendship a language of solidarity and resistance — love strong enough to outlive exile.
Between these philosophies, a single truth emerges: friendship is not sentimentality but shared humanity — the recognition of ourselves in another soul.
The conversation then moves into film, as Rob Reiner’s Stand By Me reminds us that some of life’s deepest friendships begin in youth, before we have words for loyalty, courage, or loss.
As DiMatteo reflects, friendship evolves — from the laughter of youth to the quiet understanding of adulthood, from presence to memory.
Drawing on John Keats, C.S. Lewis, Rainer Maria Rilke, and even an ancient poem by Li Bai, this episode reminds us that the ties that bind us are both fragile and eternal.
Some friends disappear; others reappear decades later as if no time has passed.
Some teach us how to hold on; others, how to let go with grace.
The Ties That Hold is a meditation for anyone who has ever lost a friend, found one again, or wondered why the ache of connection endures long after the laughter fades.
“Maybe friendship is like music,” DiMatteo says. “Most songs fade, but a few stay with us forever.”
Every generation celebrates its rebels. They fill our pages, our art, and our imaginations—men and women who stand alone against the world and call it courage. But beneath the romance of rebellion lies a haunting question: When does defiance serve truth, and when does it become its own kind of tyranny?
In this episode of The Triple Option Podcast, author and historian Michael DiMatteo explores the timeless allure—and the danger—of the noble rebel. Drawing on literature, history, and moral philosophy, he traces the figure of the rebel from myth to modernity: from Prometheus, who stole fire from the gods, to Oliver Cromwell and John Milton, whose seventeenth-century English revolution tried to purify a nation and instead created a new tyranny.
The episode moves through the Romantic era, where poets such as Lord Byron, Percy Bysshe Shelley, and Victor Hugo turned rebellion into beauty, and into the nineteenth century with Fyodor Dostoevsky’s The Brothers Karamazov, where intellectual defiance collapses into despair. Finally, DiMatteo considers Albert Camus’s warning in The Rebel: that rebellion, without conscience, descends into nihilism.
At its heart, The Myth of the Noble Rebel asks what truly separates the righteous dissenter from the self-appointed savior. The answer, DiMatteo suggests, lies not in how loudly we protest but in what we serve. The noble rebel serves truth and conscience; the false rebel serves only his reflection.
Measured, reflective, and steeped in history and literature, this episode examines the line between conviction and obsession—the fine edge between moral courage and hubris.
Suggested Reading:
John Milton — Paradise Lost
Albert Camus — The Rebel
Fyodor Dostoevsky — The Brothers Karamazov
Percy Bysshe Shelley — Prometheus Unbound
Victor Hugo — Les Misérables
Edmund Burke — Reflections on the Revolution in France
Episode 11 – On the Search for Truth
“What is truth?” Pilate’s question to Jesus still lingers. In this episode of the T.O.P. Podcast, we follow humanity’s search for truth across time and cultures — from Socrates in Athens to Augustine in North Africa, from Confucius and Laozi in China to Solzhenitsyn in the gulag.
The ancients believed truth was worth dying for. Socrates declared, “The unexamined life is not worth living.” Plato warned that most of us mistake shadows for reality. In Egypt, truth was personified as Ma’at, the goddess of balance. In India, the Upanishads taught: “Truth alone triumphs, not falsehood.” The Stoics — Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, Seneca — saw truth in integrity, freedom of the mind, and living in harmony with nature.
Faith tied truth to the divine. Augustine confessed, “Our hearts are restless until they rest in You.” Aquinas reconciled faith with reason. Al-Ghazali insisted only God grants ultimate truth, while Averroes defended philosophy as its ally. Confucius grounded truth in ethics; Laozi reminded us, “The Dao that can be told is not the eternal Dao.”
The Renaissance and Enlightenment put truth in human hands. Petrarch called for a return to the sources. Galileo risked trial to defend the cosmos. Locke claimed the mind is a blank slate. Voltaire warned that “those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities.” Kant urged: “Dare to know.”
But history shows truth is costly. Socrates drank hemlock. Jan Hus was burned. Solzhenitsyn endured exile for writing what others denied.
And today? We live in an age of “my truth” — interpretations dressed up as reality. The French Revolution’s Reign of Terror reminds us how “their truth” devours its own. Orwell foresaw a world where power dictates truth: “2 + 2 = 5.”
So where does that leave us? Leopold von Ranke believed history could show things “as they actually happened.” Niall Ferguson warns falsehood now spreads faster than fact. Maybe truth isn’t gone, but buried. Our task, as ever, is to turn toward the light — even when it hurts.
Aging. It’s universal, it’s relentless, and it’s something that every culture and every era has had to reckon with. From the philosophers of ancient Rome to modern-day music legends, the question remains: what does it really mean to grow old? Is it decline, wisdom, endurance, or something else entirely?
In this episode of the TOP Podcast, Michael DiMatteo takes you on a journey through the history, literature, and culture of aging. We begin with Cicero’s De Senectute (On Old Age), where the Roman statesman argued that while the body weakens, the mind and memory can flourish — old age as a harvest, a crown of life. Then we step into Shakespeare’s darker vision, where aging is “second childishness and mere oblivion,” a slow march toward dependence and loss. Hemingway enters next with Santiago, the aged fisherman of The Old Man and the Sea, embodying endurance: frail in body but unbroken in spirit.
From there, we move into popular culture, where America’s obsession with youth collides with the reality of age. We confront denial in commercials that promise to “fight” aging, but we also find reverence in the weathered pride of Clint Eastwood, the battered honesty of Johnny Cash, and even the wistful grace of Frank Sinatra’s “It Was a Very Good Year.”Each offers a different sound, a different face of what it means to age.
But aging isn’t just for the philosophers and the stars. It’s lived every day in families and communities — and in this episode, Michael draws from his own work, Falling Leaves, to bring that truth home. In Musings of an Old Man, an eighty-nine-year-old narrator strips away the masks of denial, confessing the loneliness and truth of old age. In John and Gloria, we witness love carried through decline, memory, and even into absence — a reminder that family and companionship are the anchors of dignity in the face of time.
This episode explores how class has always shaped the experience of aging. Senators in Rome lived long enough to reflect; peasants in Elizabethan fields did not. In Hemingway’s Cuba, a fisherman works until he dies, while in modern America, the wealthy prolong their years with comfort, and the working class ages faster under the weight of labor. Yet despite these divisions, one truth remains: aging, no matter your station in life, need not be without dignity.
Aging is not an abstraction. It is harvest and decline, endurance and loss, memory and love. It is the reckoning of a life lived.
Join Michael DiMatteo for this deep dive into the meaning of aging — in history, literature, music, and lived experience. And discover why, in the end, aging is bearable, even beautiful, when it is carried with dignity and lived in the presence of family.
Michael DiMatteo is the author of Falling Leaves, Confessions of a High School Football Coach, the Flavius Fettotempi series, and his newest work, Bloodlines: A Story of Memory, Silence, and Family. Learn more at www.mrdwrites.com.
Episode: Dostoevsky’s Demons — The Warning We Still Need
When Fyodor Dostoevsky published Demons in 1872, he wasn’t just writing a novel—he was writing a prophecy. What begins as the story of a revolutionary conspiracy in a provincial Russian town becomes a chilling diagnosis of what happens when ideas break loose from faith, morality, and tradition.
Demons gives us unforgettable characters:
Nikolai Stavrogin, the aristocrat whose charm conceals a hollow soul.
Alexei Kirillov, the engineer who reasons that if God does not exist, man must prove his freedom by suicide.
Pyotr Verkhovensky, the manipulator modeled on the real Sergey Nechayev, who turns ideology into pure destruction.
Ivan Shatov, the defector from radicalism, murdered by his former comrades to preserve their solidarity.
Stepan Verkhovensky, the fading liberal, replaced by his son’s ruthless fanaticism.
Dostoevsky’s characters are not just individuals—they are archetypes of forces that have shaped the modern world. His warning is stark: when belief collapses, people do not become free—they become possessed by demons of ideology.
In this episode we follow a Rankian method of history—facts first, literature as witness. We trace the Reign of Terror during the French Revolution, where up to 300 people a day were guillotined, many of them peasants and workers, the very people the revolution claimed to liberate. We see echoes in Russia’s emancipation of the serfs, where promised freedom turned to debt and resentment. We watch Nechayev’s real-life circle commit murder in the name of “progress.”
From Nietzsche’s cry that “God is dead” (1882), to Camus’s reminder in The Rebel (1951) that every revolution risks becoming an oppression, the voices of philosophy and literature confirm Dostoevsky’s fears. Solzhenitsyn, in his Templeton Address (1983), would later say: “Men have forgotten God; that’s why all this has happened.”
The novel’s prophecy did not stay on the page. Within 45 years of its publication, Russia fell into revolution, civil war, and terror on a scale Dostoevsky foresaw. And the pattern has not vanished. Whether in campus radicalism, digital mobs, or politics turned into religion, the same demons still haunt us.
This is not an easy book, but it may be the most prophetic novel of the last two centuries. In this episode of the Triple Option Podcast, we explore Demons as literature, history, and mirror.
Because Dostoevsky’s warning was not just for 19th-century Russia.
It was for us.
In this episode of the Triple Option Podcast, we turn our attention to a forgotten name from the First World War—Harry Butters, an American who chose to fight and die for a cause larger than himself before his own country had even entered the conflict. Butters was not a soldier of fortune, nor a thrill-seeker looking for adventure. He was a man of conviction, shaped by faith, family, and an acute sense of duty. His life and death raise questions that echo forward to us today: what do we stand for, and what are we willing to sacrifice for it?
Born in San Francisco, Butters lived a privileged life, yet his choice to join the British Army in 1915 placed him far from the comfort of home. He endured illness and shell shock at the front, returned to the line despite medical advice, and met his death at the Battle of the Somme in August 1916. He was just 24 years old. His burial at Meaulte Military Cemetery in France remains a quiet testament to the Americans who believed liberty was worth their very lives, years before Woodrow Wilson committed the United States to war.
Winston Churchill remembered him. Theodore Roosevelt honored him. And Franklin Roosevelt, reflecting on the sacrifice of Butters and others like him, would later speak of “the great tradition of service and sacrifice” that defined American character in its finest hours. In Harry Butters, we see a man who refused to stand aside while others fought tyranny.
But this episode is not merely about biography. It is about legacy. We connect Butters’ story to the deeper historical tradition of men and women who believed that one’s reputation, honor, and service endure beyond death—a sentiment found as far back as the wisdom of the ancients. Napoleon himself once remarked that “the only thing that lives after you die is your reputation.” That reputation—what others remember of us, and what values survive us—becomes our true monument.
Have we lost that spirit today? Do we still understand the kind of devotion that would move someone to leave behind comfort, family, and safety to risk everything for principle? Or have we replaced it with cynicism, distraction, and partisanship, where the death of a political opponent can be mocked rather than mourned? These questions frame the story of Harry Butters as more than history. It is a mirror held up to us.
Join me as we walk through the battlefields of the Somme, the letters and remembrances of those who knew him, and the echoes of his sacrifice that reach into our own uncertain age. In the story of Harry Butters, we find a reminder that courage is not a relic of the past but a demand of every generation.
We all inherit something. A name, a story, a dream left unfinished by those before us. Sometimes that inheritance feels like a gift, but often it becomes a burden. That’s what I’m calling today: the weight of legacy.
In my Flavius Fettotempi novels, this theme is front and center. Flavius lives under the shadow of his father Honorius, chasing a vision that was never truly his own. It’s a tragedy not only of ambition but of inheritance—the cost of living someone else’s story.
History echoes with the same struggle. Alexander the Great carried his father’s conquests but burned out at just 32. Rome’s emperors lived and died under Augustus’s shadow. Winston Churchill admitted he spent his life trying to redeem his father’s disappointment. Dynasties from the Habsburgs to America’s political families inherited not just opportunity but expectation.
Literature gives us the language for this weight. William Faulkner, in Absalom, Absalom!, wrote: “The past is never dead. It’s not even past.” Arthur Miller’s Death of a Salesman shows Willy Loman crushed by a dream he inherited and tried to pass down. Toni Morrison’s Beloved reminds us that even trauma is a legacy, carried forward until someone finds the courage to face it.
This episode is about asking: what do we carry forward, and what do we set down? Legacy is never neutral. It shapes us whether we embrace it or reject it. The challenge is deciding what belongs to us—and what belongs to the past.
Join me as I connect the tragedy of Flavius Fettotempi with history, literature, and the legacies in our own lives. Because maybe the real weight of legacy isn’t the past at all. Maybe it’s the present—the courage to decide, here and now, what story we will make our own.
In this week’s episode of The T.O.P. Podcast, we explore the quiet force that shapes history, literature, and our personal lives—missed opportunities.
We often imagine turning points as moments of bold action and decisive clarity. But just as often, the real hinge of history is what doesn’t happen. What isn’t said. What we hesitate to do. And what we can never get back once the moment passes.
We begin in literature, where stories are built on what could have been:
• Jay Gatsby, reaching for a dream already gone.
• Hamlet, overthinking his one chance at justice.
• George and Lennie, losing their dream to a world that never gave them a real shot.
• And Robert Frost, standing at a fork in the road that still haunts readers a century later.
From there, we move into the historical realm:
• The Fall of Constantinople in 1453, where pride prevented unity—and a thousand-year empire vanished.
• General McClellan at Antietam in 1862, whose caution prolonged the Civil War by years.
• Dr. Ignaz Semmelweis, who discovered the link between unwashed hands and deadly infection—but was dismissed, ridiculed, and died before the world believed him.
And finally, we bring it home—to our lives, our choices, our own roads not taken. The job we didn’t apply for. The phone call we never made. The apology we withheld. We reflect on the simple truth captured by Kierkegaard:
“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”
As always, we find threads between the past and the present, between the great dramas of history and the quiet choices of our own days. Because missed opportunities aren’t just for kings, generals, and poets—they belong to all of us.
This episode invites you to reflect not with regret, but with resolve. To stop waiting. To choose the road that’s in front of you. To act.
What does it mean to inherit a hat? Not just the fabric or brim, but the memory and identity sewn into it. In this week’s episode of the TOP Podcast, I explore the hat we inherit—the objects, values, and burdens passed down through generations.
A hat can identify us, protect us, and connect us to a story larger than ourselves. I see it every time I glance at my grandfather’s old paperboy cap. It’s not just cloth—it’s a reminder of the man he was.
Literature is full of these inheritances: Gogol’s The Overcoat, where a coat gives dignity; Huck Finn’s straw hat, a symbol of freedom; Dickens’ Ghost of Christmas Present crowned with holly, a symbol of generosity. History, too, has its hats—Napoleon’s bicorne, Lincoln’s stovepipe, the tricorne of the Revolution. Each tells a story beyond the person who wore it.
In my upcoming novel Bloodlines, a hat travels across generations, becoming a bridge between grandfather and grandson, hardship and hope. Sometimes what we inherit fits well. Sometimes it’s heavy. Sometimes it’s what we push away. But we all wear something handed down to us.
So let me ask: what hat have you inherited? Maybe it’s an object, maybe it’s a value, maybe it’s a burden. The real question is—how will you choose to wear it?
What keeps a culture from drifting into amnesia? In this episode, we make the case for the literary canon as one of civilization’s most reliable anchors. From Homer to Shakespeare to Twain—and from Confucius to Achebe—these works carry the collective memory of entire peoples, binding past and present through shared language, moral debate, and enduring stories.
Drawing on David Christian’s Big History and a historian’s eye for shifting reputations, we show how both history and literature are selective memories—what we choose to keep says as much about us as it does about the past. Along the way, we read from The Odyssey, Henry V, and Huckleberry Finn, proving that centuries-old words can still hit with full force today.
It’s a fast-moving, thought-provoking look at why the canon matters, how it changes, and what we lose if we cut it loose.
In this episode of the TOP Podcast, Michael DiMatteo exploreswhwat it means to honor those how came before us, and what we lost when we don't. From the wisdom of ancient councils of elders to the quiet reflections of a grandfather in 1920s America, we examine how generations voices shape our understanding of life and resilience. This episode also reflects on intergenerational loneliness, the fading connection between young and old, and the lessons waiting for us in our own family histories.
In this episode of the TOP podcast, we'll take a look at the great Southern Gothic writer - Harry Crews. We'll also find out what Southern Gothic is, along with what makes it special. I'll also read some excerpts from Harry Crews' A Childhood, along with a short selection from A Feast of Snakes. It's a genre that's a little out of the ordinary today, but one that is fascinating and interesting all at the same time.