In this episode, I'm getting deeply personal about the nuances of trust in relationships and why it's not just about doing your own work. This is about the sacred dance between evolution and acceptance, and how to know when you're growing together versus when you're growing apart. You'll hear about my own journey from a family that modeled emotional distance to creating conscious partnership, the "changer" versus "acceptor" archetypes in relationships, and why my Gene Keys literally wire me to never stop evolving. I'm sharing David Deida's framework for the three stages of love and how they map to the Gene Keys frequencies, plus the hardest truth of all - sometimes loving someone means setting them free, especially when they have a self-fulfilling prophecy that they're unworthy of love. This includes my vulnerable story about growing up watching my parents turn their backs on each other and a client's powerful journey of walking away with complete peace. What we're covering: Sacred intimacy: fully allowing and embracing your partner's shadows, strengths, and everything in between The "changer" vs "acceptor" archetypes and why women often carry the emotional evolution load David Deida's three stages of love mapped to Gene Keys shadow, gift, and siddhi frequencies How to use your Gene Keys profile (especially the red spheres) to understand relationship patterns When growing apart means it's time to honor what is and walk away with love Ready to Transform From the Inside Out? If this episode cracked something open and you're ready to do the deep work of creating conscious partnership (whether that's healing your current relationship or preparing for your next one), I have a few spots open for 1:1 coaching. This is shadow work, Gene Keys integration, and learning to trust your deepest knowing. Send me a DM when you're ready to transform love from the inside out. Love this episode?  Screenshot this and share it to your stories - tag me @iamkaijadawn! And hit subscribe so you never miss an episode. ✨ Be brave, not perfect, my babe! Xx, Kaija . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the biggest spiritual revolution happening right now is in your emotional body? In this episode, I'm diving deep into the emotional solar plexus with Jenn Greiner, a 3/5 emotional projector who transitioned from 10+ years as a therapist to building her coaching practice around Human Design and emotional sovereignty. We talk about her journey from feeling guilty for existing (hello, core wound work) to embracing her gifts of anticipation and leadership through the Gene Keys as well! This isn't your typical "feel your feelings" conversation. This is about understanding the actual energetics of how emotions work, why half the world struggles with emotional authority, and how our relationship with emotions is literally mutating as we speak. But here's where it gets really juicy.. We dive into the mechanics of emotional authority, why you don't need to wait for a "hell yes" as an emotional being, and how that subtle 60-80% feeling gets to be enough. Jenn shares specific questions to ask yourself while riding your emotional wave that will completely change how you make decisions. The truth is... If you have an open or undefined solar plexus, you've probably been carrying everyone else's emotional stuff without even knowing it. And if you're emotionally defined, you might be waiting way too long for clarity that feels different than what you've been told to expect. 🔥 What we're covering: Why emotional authority is nothing like sacral or splenic authority (and why that changes everything) The physical manifestations that show up when your solar plexus is out of alignment How guilt vs. shame shows up differently and why knowing your core wound matters The specific emotional wave patterns and what they actually feel like in your body Why non-emotional people get the amplified, distorted version of emotional people's feelings How the 41st and 31st Gene Keys create the perfect storm for leadership and anticipation The questions to ask yourself while navigating your emotional wave Why the emotional solar plexus mutation means we're all learning a new way of being Ready to Go Deeper Into Your Own Design? If this conversation sparked something in you and you're ready to do the real work of deconditioning - the kind that requires looking at your patterns, your shadows, and the ways you've been living out of alignment - I have a few spots open for 1:1 coaching. This isn't surface-level work. This is about unraveling the conditioning that's been running your life and stepping into the fullness of who you're designed to be. If you're ready to stop playing small and start living from your authentic power, send me a DM and let's see if we're a fit to work together. Love this episode? Screenshot this and share it to your stories and tag me @iamkaijadawn! Hit subscribe so you never miss an episode. ✨ Connect with Jenn: Instagram: @thevitalJennWebsite: Divine Vitality with JennEmotional Sovereignty Starter Kit Be brave, not perfect, my babe! Xx, Kaija . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

Most of us have been asking the wrong question about trust in our relationship entirely.  We focus on whether we can trust our partner to show up, to keep their word, to meet our needs- which is valid, of course, but we need to take it deeper. Relationships are mirrors - and the real question trust is asking you is: Can you trust yourself in this relationship? In this episode, I'm sharing the raw conversation with my friend whose partner literally left town when she was unconscious and sick for 24 hours. Instead of focusing on his abandonment, we dove deep into why she was choosing to stay and abandon herself. I'm also opening up about my 13-year relationship where I lost myself so completely that I couldn't even choose tomato sauce at the store. This isn't about blaming yourself or excusing bad behavior. This is about recognizing that your body is constantly communicating through exhaustion, throat issues, feeling hollow, getting sick - and learning to trust that wisdom above all else. If you've been asking "Can I trust him?" but haven't asked "Am I willing to self-abandon for this relationship?" this episode will shift everything. 🔥 What We're Covering: Why relationships are mirrors that show you your relationship with yourself The real story behind my friend's partner abandoning her when she was unconscious and sick How self-abandonment disguises itself as "working on your relationship" Why your body gets sick, exhausted, and hollow when you're betraying yourself The choice every woman faces: self-abandon or be brave (not perfect) How to identify your values and non-negotiables before communicating them Moving from first-stage love (victim/blame) to second-stage love (we-focused growth) Why trusting yourself to have your own back changes how your partner shows up The truth is... Trust equals safety, and safety equals the ability to thrive. But most of us are looking for safety from our partner instead of creating it within ourselves first. When you trust yourself enough to honor your body's wisdom, speak your truth, and uphold your non-negotiables, you either create the foundation for conscious love - or you get the clarity you need to choose yourself. Xx,KD Questions to Sit With: Can I trust myself in this relationship? What is my body trying to communicate to me right now? Am I willing to self-abandon or be brave (not perfect)? What are my actual non-negotiables in relationship? Ready to go deeper with personalized support? If you're recognizing patterns of self-abandonment in your relationship and want to build the foundation of radical self-trust but don't know where to start, my 1:1 coaching is designed for women ready to stop fragmenting themselves for love. Together, we'll identify your specific values and non-negotiables, learn to trust your body's wisdom as sacred information, and create the conscious partnership where you feel deeply seen and supported instead of walking on eggshells. If you're ready to move from self-abandonment to self-trust and build love that honors your truth, send me a DM on IG to explore working together. Love this episode? Screenshot and tag me @iamkaijadawn - especially if this perspective shift hit you right in the soul. Warning: This episode is a loving but direct wake-up call. I'm speaking from my mama voice because this message needs to land. You are worthy of relationships that honor your truth, not ones that require you to fragment yourself to survive.. . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

There's this quiet desperation that happens in relationships that no one talks about. It's not dramatic enough to call it a crisis, but it's not subtle enough to ignore. You're managing life together beautifully - paying bills, raising kids, checking boxes - but somewhere along the way, your souls stopped feeding each other. You've become efficient teammates instead of nourishing lovers, and your nervous system is sending you signals that something essential is missing. In this episode, I'm naming what so many of us experience but struggle to articulate - relationship malnourishment. This isn't about not loving each other enough. It's about feeling unconsciously starved in your relationship of the specific emotional nutrients your unique designs actually need to thrive. In this episode, you'll discover how to recognize when you're experiencing relationship malnourishment, what nutrients you're actually craving, and how your Gene Keys Attraction Sphere reveals your unique blueprint for creating nourishing connection. I'm breaking down the four core relational nutrients (safety & consistency, play & investment, understanding & forgiveness) and sharing how understanding your partner's Attraction Sphere can transform malnourishment into conscious nourishment. If you've been questioning "Are we compatible?" or feeling like you're just managing logistics instead of creating magic, this episode will help you understand what's actually missing and how to feed your relationship back to aliveness. 🔥 What We're Covering: The warning signs of relationship malnourishment (energy depletion, missing pieces, roommate dynamics) Four core relational nutrients your nervous system needs to thrive Your Gene Keys Attraction Sphere - the blueprint for how you create relationship chemistry The 6 line expressions in attraction and how they show up as shadows or gifts How understanding your partner's design stops you from taking their patterns personally Practical ways to consciously nourish each other instead of unconsciously starving The monthly nourishment check that transforms relationships from surviving to thriving The truth is... Relationship malnourishment isn't about not loving each other enough. It's about not understanding what specific nutrients each of your nervous systems actually needs to thrive. When you start consciously feeding each other what you're actually starving for, your relationship becomes a source of energy instead of depletion. Be sure to grab you and your partner's Gene Keys Profiles so you can dive in your Attraction Spheres and start to nourish your relationship like you're both craving.  Xx,KD 💡 Ready to Transform From the Inside Out? If you're ready to understand the deeper blueprints that create nourishing love, The Gene Keys Book Club is where we explore how your Attraction Sphere reveals exactly what kind of connection your soul is designed to create and receive. 🎯 Grab your 3-Channel Relationship Assessment in the show notes! Discover exactly which areas of your relationship need nourishment and get a clear roadmap for feeding your connection what it actually needs. Love this episode? Screenshot and tag me on IG - especially if you finally have words for what you've been feeling! Questions to Ask Yourself: What nutrients am I craving that I'm not getting? What would make connecting feel energizing instead of draining? What nutrients is my partner starving for that I could provide? . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

Would you believe me if I told you that you're ALWAYS evoking something from your partner - the question isn't whether you're doing it, but whether you're doing it consciously or unconsciously? In this final episode of the Relationship Physics series, I'm revealing the most powerful piece - the Law of Energetic Evocation. This is about how your energetic state is literally calling forth responses from your partner's nervous system, and how you can shift from accidentally triggering what you don't want to consciously creating what you do want. You'll discover the concept of the "Eden Loop" - the unconscious pattern where one person's mental defense triggers the other's emotional defense, creating endless cycles of triggering each other's childhood wounds that lie with in the IQ Sphere & EQ Sphere in the Gene Keys Golden Path. I'm breaking down real examples like the criticism-defensiveness spiral and the overwhelm-withdrawal pattern that keep couples stuck. Most importantly, you'll learn specific strategies for consciously evoking safety during conflict, presence when they're checked out, leadership when you're overwhelmed, and connection when energy feels flat. If you've been hoping your partner will just start responding differently, this episode shows you how to become the conscious creator of what happens between you two. 🔥 What We're Covering: The Law of Energetic Evocation - how your energy calls forth specific responses from your partner The Eden Loop: Why couples get stuck triggering each other's intellectual and emotional defense patterns in the Gene Keys IQ sphere & EQ sphere Real examples of unconscious evocation patterns (criticism-defensiveness, overwhelm-withdrawal) How to consciously evoke safety, presence, leadership, and connection instead of triggering defenses Why it only takes ONE person to break unconscious patterns and transform the dynamic Specific strategies for evoking your partner's love patterns instead of their protection patterns The monthly practice that will revolutionize how you show up in your relationship The truth is... You're always contributing to the energetic field between you and your partner. When you become conscious of what you're evoking instead of being an unconscious victim of patterns, you stop hoping for better responses and start creating the conditions for deeper intimacy. It only takes one person to shift the entire dynamic. Xx, KD Grab Gene Keys Profiles  for you and your partner to see what Gene Keys you have activated in your IQ & EQ Spheres.  💡 Ready to Transform From the Inside Out? If this series has opened up a new way of seeing your relationship, The Gene Keys Book Club is where we dive deep into understanding the unconscious patterns that either create magic or chaos in love. Grab your 3-Channel Relationship Assessment! Get personalized scores for your emotional, sexual, and spiritual channels plus specific next steps for the areas that need attention. Stop guessing why things feel off and get a clear roadmap for creating conscious connection. Love this series? Screenshot and tag me on IG with your biggest takeaway and share it with another woman ready to understand the invisible forces shaping her relationship! Series Recap: 051 | The Invisible Forces That Makes or Breaks Love That You've Never Even Heard Of Until Now! - Relationship Physics pt 1 053 | Why You Keep Triggering Each Other (Even When You're Being "Nice") - Relationship Physics pt 2 . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if I told you that your nervous system is constantly broadcasting like a radio station, and your partner's body is tuning into that frequency and responding to it before you even speak? In this episode, I'm diving deep into the invisible force that's shaping every interaction in your relationship - the law of energetic transmission. This is about how your cells and nervous system are listening and responding 24/7, picking up on energy that's happening beneath your conscious awareness. You'll hear my raw story about how my Gene Key 12 Shadow of Vanity almost sabotaged my relationship with Christian in the early days - how I was terrified of losing my independence and actually told him his grounding energy felt "too much" for my hypervigilant nervous system. I'm also sharing how understanding Christian's Gene Key 60 (Shadow of Limitation) completely shifted how I respond when he brings up obstacles, instead of making him the problem. If you've ever wondered why the same conversation can go completely sideways one day and beautifully the next, this episode reveals the energetic mechanics happening underneath that have nothing to do with your words. 🔥 What We're Covering: How your nervous system processes 11 million bits of information per second (while your brain only catches 5%) Why dysregulation creates more dysregulation and how to interrupt the cycle The real reason you can feel someone's bad day before they tell you How my Open Sacral responded to Christian's pure Generator energy (and why I almost pushed him away) Gene Key 12: Moving from the Shadow of Vanity to the Gift of Discrimination Gene Key 60: Understanding the Shadow of Limitation and Gift of Realism in relationships Why triggers are actually sacred information your body is giving you How to take responsibility for your energetic transmission without taking on your partner's emotions The truth is... Your body is constantly broadcasting and receiving energy that creates the emotional climate of your relationship. You can say the exact same words in two different conversations and get completely different responses based on your energetic state. Once you understand this invisible language, you stop wondering why conversations go sideways and start taking conscious responsibility for the frequency you're transmitting. Xx, KD 💡 Ready to Transform From the Inside Out? If you're ready to understand the deeper energetic dynamics shaping your relationship, The Gene Keys Book Club is where we dive into the shadow patterns and gifts that are unconsciously running your connections. 🎯 Free Resource Alert! Download your Body Wisdom Guide! It's perfect for regulating your nervous system and creating conscious pauses before difficult conversations. Gene Keys Resources: The Gene Keys Book Individual Gene Key Audio Transmissions: $2 each Complete 64 Gene Key Audio Library: $100 Love this episode? Screenshot and tag me @iamkaijadawn! Next Week: Episode 3 - The Law of Energetic Evocation: How to consciously create the responses you want instead of accidentally triggering what you don't. . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the burnout you're experiencing isn't a sign that something's wrong with you, but proof that you're trying to force yourself into an energetic design that was never meant for you?! In this episode, I'm sitting down with my new friend Lauren Farrow, an Emotional Projector who went from collapsing on the London Underground after grueling TV production days to building a thriving business that honors her energetic design. You'll hear Lauren's raw story of how she discovered Human Design through her sister's gift on her 30th birthday, and the exact moment she realized she'd been labeling herself as "indecisive" and "non-committal" when she was actually just honoring her emotional authority. Lauren also breaks down the massive 2027 shift we're all moving through - from the Cross of Planning to the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix - and why this explains the collective discomfort and uncertainty we're all feeling right now. If you've been pushing yourself to be consistent in ways that drain you or questioning why you can't seem to commit like everyone else, this conversation will give you permission to define success on your own energetic terms. 🔥 What We're Covering: How Lauren went from TV production burnout to conscious creation entrepreneur using Human Design Why Projectors burn out when they try to match Generator/Manifesting Generator energy The difference between commitment and consistency (and why you get to define both) How an undefined Heart Center and Spleen Center created constant need to prove herself Working with emotional authority as a Self-Projected Projector in business and relationships The 2027 collective shift from tribal planning to individualized expression Gene Key 29: Moving from half-heartedness to true commitment and devotion How to align your business strategy with your energetic design instead of copying others The truth is... Most of us are trying to succeed using strategies designed for different energy types. When you understand your unique energetic blueprint, you stop forcing yourself into systems that deplete you and start creating from a place of sustainable alignment. Your "inconsistency" might actually be your intuitive wisdom guiding you away from what's not meant for you. Connect with Lauren on IG @whatsthesoultruth She's currently recording an audio series about the 2027 shift and offers one-to-one consultancies for aligning your business with your Human Design! ⚡ Want to Dive Deeper Into Your Human Design? Understanding your energy type and authority changes everything about how you approach work, relationships, and decision-making. Join me for HD Happy Hour where we dive deep into your chart and how to work with your design instead of against it. Love this episode? Screenshot this and tag both @iamkaijadawn and @whatsthesoultruth! Xx, KD . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

Would you believe me if I told you that relationships actually operate by the same laws as physics? Like, there are invisible forces constantly at play that either create magnetic attraction or complete energetic flatness, and most of us are totally unconscious of what we're broadcasting and receiving. In this episode, I'm revealing the invisible mechanics that are either igniting passion or slowly draining the life out of your connection - and why you can feel so energetically mismatched even when you love each other deeply. This isn't about learning better communication techniques or trying to force love into one simple box. This is about understanding the three distinct energetic channels that are running in your relationship 24/7, and how to consciously work with these invisible forces instead of being unconscious victims of them. You'll hear about my 13-year relationship where we felt like complete roommates despite loving each other, and the specific moment I realized we were energetically mismatched on multiple levels - both stuck in the same frequency with zero polarity. I'm also sharing how understanding these three channels completely transformed my relationship with Christian, and why this invisible language your relationship is always speaking changes everything once you can see it. If you've been feeling disconnected but can't name exactly what's wrong, this episode will help you diagnose exactly which energetic channel needs your attention first. 🔥 What We're Covering: The Law of Energetic Dimensions - why your relationship operates on three completely different frequencies at once The three energetic channels (emotional, sexual, spiritual) and how they create connection or disconnection Masculine and feminine energetic expressions within each channel (and why these aren't gender-specific) How to diagnose energetic mismatches instead of just saying "we need better communication" Why you can love someone deeply but feel zero sexual charge (and what to do about it) The specific signs that you're both embodying the same energy instead of creating polarity How to consciously switch between energetic expressions to create magnetic attraction Why spiritually aware women often feel like they're outgrowing their relationships (and the real solution) The truth is... Most relationship advice treats connection like it's one thing. But your body is constantly picking up on these invisible mechanics - emotional flow versus holding, sexual surrender versus claiming, spiritual devotion versus consciousness. When all three channels are dancing together in polarity, you create this incredible energetic current that feels like magic. When they're mismatched, you get that disconnect feeling even when you can't name why. Xx, KD 💞Grab your free 3-Channel Relationship Assessment! It helps you diagnose exactly which energetic channel needs your attention first and gives you specific steps to create more conscious polarity. Love this episode? Screenshot this, share it to your stories and tag me on IG! Hit subscribe so you never miss an episode. ✨ . . . Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the hardest conversations in your relationship were actually the gateway to the deepest intimacy you've ever experienced? In this episode, I'm getting real about the conversation I had with Christian a few months ago that could have destroyed our connection—but instead became one of our most beautiful moments of closeness. This isn't about perfect communication scripts or avoiding conflict altogether. This is about what happens when you finally stop choosing between your truth and your relationship—and start choosing both. You'll hear about the "sheets story" that triggered every wound I carried from my previous 13-year relationship, and how I learned to speak from my heart instead of from my hurt. I'm also sharing the exact 3-step practice I used to keep my heart open while delivering a hard truth that needed to be said. The same practice my clients are using to transform their relationships from defensive battlegrounds into conscious partnerships. If you've been walking on eggshells or exploding with months of built-up resentment, this episode will show you there's a third option that creates what you actually want: to be seen, heard, and felt. What We're Covering: • The nervous system check that prevents you from weaponizing your intelligence when you're triggered• How to take responsibility for your role without abandoning your needs or making yourself wrong• The values alignment practice that makes having hard conversations inevitable (in the best way)• Why cultivating safety within yourself is the key to your partner staying open during conflict• The somatic communication approach that leads with vulnerability instead of blame• The difference between speaking from your wound vs. speaking from your heart (and how to tell which one you're doing) The truth is... You can't do this work in theory. You can't regulate your nervous system from your head. Your relationship is showing you exactly where you still have room to grow—and until you face that mirror with radical honesty, you'll keep creating the same patterns with different people. Ready to Go Deeper? If you're ready to stop choosing between your truth and your relationship, I have a free guide that will support you in staying grounded while you speak what's really on your heart. It's the Body Wisdom Guide. Inside, you get the body map showing where fear lives versus where knowing lives—so you can tell if you're speaking from love or from wound. You get the 60-second practice for checking in before you respond. And you learn the generational pattern that taught you to override yourself in the first place. This is how you speak truth from your heart instead of from your hurt. Grab Yours Here Love this episode? Screenshot this and share it to your stories - tag me @iamkaijadawn! Hit subscribe so you never miss an episode. ✨ Be brave, not perfect, my babe! Xx, KD   Listen to Related Episodes: 049 | Why Needing to Win An Argument Destroys Your Relationship And What to Do Instead 047 | Where Fear Lives vs. Where Knowing Lives in Your Body (And How To Tell The Difference) 046 | How To Know When It's Time To Leave or Stay In Your Relationship (And My Biggest Fear About This) 045 | How I Created Safety In An Unsafe Relationship And Ended It With Love   Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

Being right killed my first marriage. Not the big stuff. Not infidelity or abuse or incompatibility. The slow death that came from me needing to win every argument, having receipts for every disagreement, using my understanding of psychology and nervous systems to prove I was the more conscious one. I'd win the fight. He'd say "you're right, I'm sorry." And intimacy would die a little more each time because when someone always has to be wrong, they stop bringing you their truth. In this episode, I'm breaking down the addiction to being right - why your nervous system treats disagreement as survival threat, the actual chemical reward you get from "winning," and what it costs you in connection. I'm also sharing the exact practice that helped me shift from destroying relationships with my need to be correct to choosing devotion to love instead. If you've ever felt that desperate urgency to make someone understand your perspective RIGHT NOW, this episode will show you what's actually happening in your body - and how to choose differently. What We're Covering: Why being right feels like literal survival to your nervous system The dopamine hit that makes you addicted to winning arguments What happens in your brain when you're activated (hint: empathy goes offline) How dysregulation creates more dysregulation between partners The signs you're activated and need to pause before you destroy connection The exact phrases that shift conflict from combat to connection What your partner actually needs from you (it's not perfect solutions or for you to be right) The Truth: You cannot create connection from a disconnected state. When your prefrontal cortex goes offline and you're in fight mode, your only goal is defeating the perceived threat - which is your partner's different perspective. Your nervous system state determines how your words land, not the words themselves. Intimacy dies when someone always has to be wrong. The wedge gets deeper every time you prioritize being right over being connected. Regulate Before You Respond👇 Download the free Body Wisdom Guide - includes the 60-second practice for checking in with your body before you respond, how to tell activation from intuition, and how to stay grounded when conflict shows up. Link in show notes. Ready to Choose Devotion Over Division? Gene Keys Book Club is where we explore the shadow patterns that keep you fighting to win instead of fighting for love. Interested in private coaching available for deeper support? Connect with me on Instagram and let's chat! Be brave, not perfect, my girl! Xx, KD Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

Here's a question nobody asked me when I was in the deepest crisis of my life: What do YOU want? Instead, I got "just pray about it" and "God has a plan" and "marriage is hard." I was asking everyone - my mom, my friends, my therapist, even God - what I should do about my relationship. Meanwhile, my body was shutting down systems trying to get me to listen. At 23, I woke up completely deaf in my right ear. The doctors said it was sudden sensorineural hearing loss. I knew exactly what it was: my body taking away the one sense I kept using to seek everyone else's permission instead of trusting what I already knew. In this episode, I'm sharing that story and the pattern underneath it - how women are trained from childhood to question their own reactions, seek external validation, and override their body's wisdom. And why "Am I overreacting?" is the red flag that you're about to abandon yourself. What We're Covering: How religious and cultural conditioning taught you to distrust your body's signals Why "overreacting" is gaslighting language designed to make you question valid feelings The setup that keeps you doubting yourself: feel something → express it → get told you're too sensitive → apologize for having needs What your body is actually reading when someone calls you dramatic (hint: accurate information they don't want to acknowledge) The exact reframe that stops the self-abandonment cycle Why your body will eventually make the choice for you if you keep overriding it The Truth: You weren't born needing everyone else's opinion before trusting your own. You were trained to seek external answers instead of internal knowing. Every time you ask "Am I overreacting?" you're prioritizing someone else's comfort over your own truth. Your body isn't hysterical - it's a highly sophisticated system reading people and environments with more accuracy than your conscious mind. The whispers will become screams. And if you ignore the screams, your body will shut something down to make you finally listen. Learn to Trust Your Body: Download the free Body Wisdom Guide - get the map of where fear vs. knowing lives in your body, the 60-second check-in practice, and the questions to ask when you need clarity. If I'd had this 12 years ago, I might still have my hearing. You don't have to wait for your body to shut something down. Grab Yours Here 🎁 Special Announcement: 50th Episode Giveaway! We're almost at 50 episodes! Enter to win a $25 Amazon gift card by: Leaving a review on Spotify or Apple Podcasts Screenshot your review and share on Instagram stories, tagging @iamkaija OR Fill out this Google Form with your review screenshot Ready to Stop Seeking Permission? Gene Keys Book Club is where we unpack the inherited patterns that taught you to override yourself and learn to validate your own experience first. Want private coaching available for one-on-one support, connect with me on Instagram. Be brave, not perfect, my girl! Xx, KD Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

You've been taught to distrust the one thing that's been trying to protect you all along: your body. Every time that stomach drops, every time your chest gets tight, every time your shoulders creep up to your ears - you've probably labeled it as anxiety, overthinking, or "being too sensitive." But here's what nobody tells you: your body speaks two completely different languages, and confusing them is what keeps you stuck second-guessing everything. In this episode, I'm breaking down the physical geography of fear versus knowing. Not the spiritual woo-woo version - the actual sensations in your actual body that you can learn to read like a map. Because once you know where each one lives and what it's asking you to do, you stop abandoning yourself every time something feels hard. I'm sharing the moment in my marriage when I genuinely couldn't tell if I was losing my mind or if my body was screaming truth at me. Spoiler: it was truth. But I'd spent so long being told I was "too much" that I talked myself out of it for years. What We're Covering: The specific body locations where fear shows up (and why it's so loud) Where your intuition actually speaks from (hint: it's way quieter) The one question that instantly tells you which one you're feeling Why fear demands immediate action while knowing can wait How to stop seeking external validation when your gut already knows The difference between "I'm anxious" and "I'm receiving important information" The Truth: Your body isn't broken. Your nervous system isn't overreacting. You've just been reading the signals wrong. Fear lives in your head and chest - frantic, spinning, desperate for relief. Knowing lives in your belly - calm, grounded, certain even when it's uncomfortable. One makes you want to act frantically. The other makes you want to pause deeply. Learn the difference and you'll never abandon yourself again. Want the Body Map? Grab your free Body Wisdom Guide - complete with the visual map, 60-second check-in practice with voice recordings, and the exact questions to ask when you need clarity.  Snag it here! 🎁 Special Announcement: 50th Episode Giveaway! We're almost at 50 episodes! Enter to win a $25 Amazon gift card by: Leaving a review on Spotify or Apple Podcasts Screenshot your review and share on Instagram stories, tagging @iamkaija OR Fill out this Google Form with your review screenshot Ready to Trust Yourself Again? Gene Keys Book Club is where we go deeper into rewiring the patterns that keep you overriding your body's wisdom and seeking permission outside yourself. One-on-one support available through private coaching. Connect with me on Instagram to chat more details. Be brave, not perfect, babe. Xx, KD Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the relationship that needs the most work isn't the one you're in - it's the one you have with yourself? In this episode, I'm sharing my biggest fear about the work I do with women - that teaching you to trust yourself might lead you to leave your relationship prematurely, before you've done the real work. This isn't a "stay at all costs" message or a "leave and find better" story. This is about what happens when you finally stop avoiding the uncomfortable truth of your role in the dynamic and start taking radical responsibility for how you show up. You'll hear about my 13-year relationship, the year and a half between hitting rock bottom (miscarriage, going deaf, complete burnout) and finally leaving, and the brutal honesty that changed everything. I'm sharing what I wasn't doing - the ways I was managing, accommodating, and people-pleasing instead of actually communicating my truth. I'm also revealing how I knew it was truly time to leave - and why doing the work first meant I could walk away with zero regrets and total clarity. If you've been wondering whether you should stay or go, this episode will help you ask the right question first. What We're Covering: What "doing the work" actually means (hint: it's not just reading books and going to therapy) The three core components of real relationship work: internal safety, radical responsibility, and truth-telling Why your relationship is your laboratory - and leaving too soon means repeating patterns How to communicate from your truth instead of your wounds Signs it's time to stay and do the work vs. signs it's time to leave The question that changes everything: "Have I shown up fully, communicated my truth radically, and taken responsibility for my role?" Why I can show up differently with Christian - not because he's "better," but because I transformed myself first The truth is... You can't do this work in theory. You can't heal in a vacuum. Your relationship is showing you exactly where you still have room to grow - and until you face that mirror, you'll carry the same patterns into your next relationship. 🎁 Special Announcement: 50th Episode Giveaway! We're almost at 50 episodes! Enter to win a $25 Amazon gift card by: Leaving a review on Spotify or Apple Podcasts Screenshot your review and share on Instagram stories, tagging @iamkaija OR Fill out this Google Form with your review screenshot Ready to Go Deeper? This work requires you to get radically honest about your patterns, your wounds, and your role in the dynamic. If you're ready to do that work with support, DM me on Instagram about private coaching. Be brave, not perfect, my babe! Xx, Kaija Disclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the safety you're searching for outside of yourself has been waiting inside of you all along? In this episode, I'm getting deeply personal about the hardest chapter of my life - the moment I realized I was severely malnourished in my marriage and the specific practices that brought me home to myself. This isn't a "how to leave your relationship" story. This is about what happens when you finally stop making someone else responsible for your emotional state and start cultivating the kind of internal safety that transforms everything. You'll hear about the body signals I'd been ignoring, the daily practices that helped me fall in love with myself while my world was falling apart, and how creating energetic boundaries saved my sanity. I'm also sharing what actually shifted - how my anxiety decreased, my relationship with my ex became more spacious and honest, and how I eventually attracted the conscious partnership I have now with Christian. If you've been waiting for permission to trust your body's wisdom over everyone else's opinions, this episode is for you. What We're Covering: How to read your body's signals as sacred data instead of problems to fix The practice of giving yourself the nourishment you've been lacking Why energetic boundaries are non-negotiable when you're still in a draining environment Daily check-ins that helped me come home to myself: What do I want to feel today? What do I need to feel safe right now? How radical self-validation builds the trust you've been seeking externally What changed when I stopped making my partner responsible for my happiness The ripple effect of internal safety on every relationship in your life The truth is... You don't need more knowledge - you need to listen deeply. You don't need more resources - you ARE the resource. You don't need someone else to make you feel safe - you have to cultivate that within yourself first. Ready to Go Deeper? Gene Keys Book Club is where we do the shadow work that transforms relationships at the root. This is for women ready to heal generational patterns and cultivate internal safety that changes everything. Need one-on-one support through your own transformation? Reach out about private coaching on Instagram: @iamkaijadawn Be brave, not perfect, my babe!  Xx, KDDisclaimer: This podcast shares personal stories, experiences, and reflections on relationships, consciousness work, and personal growth. The content is not intended as a substitute for professional mental health support, medical advice, or therapeutic treatment. If you're experiencing crisis, abuse, or severe mental health symptoms, please reach out to a qualified professional. Your journey is your own - trust yourself to know what support you need and when you need it.

What if the thing keeping you stuck in your relationship struggles isn't lack of communication skills or therapy techniques - but the fact that you're trying to do it all alone? Today's conversation is raw, real, and incredibly timely. I'm sitting down with my friend and client Adrian, a fitness studio owner here in Durango, who's walking the path so many of you are on right now - using Human Design and Gene Keys to create deeper understanding in her relationships while navigating the very real fear of being "too much" or a burden. What We're Diving Into: This conversation goes places. We're talking about: How Human Design changed the way Adrian shows up in her partnership Using Gene Keys to create compassion instead of judgment with your kids The transformation that happens when you finally ask for support instead of suffering in silence Why your intuition knows things your mind is still trying to rationalize Parenting according to your child's design (not your expectations) The burden myth that keeps high-achieving women isolated in their struggles Key Moments You Don't Want to Miss: On Relationship Energetics: Adrian shares how understanding her partner's design helped her stop taking his responses personally and start seeing them as his natural way of processing. On Intuitive Knowing: The moment she knew something needed to shift - and how her body was screaming what her mind was still debating. On Asking for Support: Why she almost didn't reach out, what finally made her take that step, and the breakthrough that happened because she did. On Parenting with Design: How knowing her kids' charts transformed her from frustrated to fascinated by their behaviors. If you've ever felt like you're the only one doing the inner work in your relationship, or if you've convinced yourself that asking for help means you're weak or needy, this episode is your permission slip. Adrian's story is proof that the women who are brave enough to reach out for support are the ones who actually create the transformation they're seeking. Connect with Adrian: YO! Fitness Studio in Durango, ColoradoInstagram: @yofitness.us Ready for Your Own Transformation? The Gene Keys Book Club is where we go beyond surface-level convos and dive into the shadow and gift patterns that shape how your relationships actually function. This is consciousness work for women ready to heal generational patterns, understand their energetic dynamics with partners and children, and create relationships rooted in true alignment rather than conditioning. If you're ready for one-on-one support like Adrian experienced, reach out about private coaching. Sometimes the breakthrough you need happens in a safe container with someone who sees you, gets you, and can help you navigate the complexity of conscious relationships. Share This Episode: If Adrian's story resonated with you, screenshot this and share it to your stories. Tag both of us! We'd love to hear what landed for you.Adrian's IG: @yofitmamaKaija's IG: @iamkaijadawn Xx, KD

You know that feeling when you've been doing ALL the inner work, reading all the books, following all the spiritual teachers... but you still can't figure out why your relationship feels so hard? I've been there. And honestly? Traditional relationship advice wasn't cutting it for me. What actually transformed everything was discovering these 4 teachers who gave me the language for what my body already knew. In this episode, I'm breaking down the frameworks that helped me stop questioning my sanity and start trusting my inner knowing—so you can create the conscious, safe, expansive relationship you've been craving. THE 4 TEACHERS WHO CHANGED EVERYTHING: Gene Keys Shadow, Gift & Siddhi frequencies in relationships Understanding your patterns at the energetic level Why your "triggers" are actually sacred information David Deida The 3 Stages of Love (and where you might be stuck) 1st Stage: Self-focused love 2nd Stage: We-focused love 3rd Stage: Divinity-focused love John Wineland Sacred Intimacy: Creating safety for vulnerability Devotion to Love: Showing up when it's uncomfortable Sexual Polarity: The energetic dance between masculine & feminine Human Design Your Type & Strategy in relationships Using your Authority to make aligned decisions How your Profile shapes intimacy Why your "sensitivity" is actually spiritual guidance Why this matters: When you understand how all four of these modalities weave together, you create depth, safety, connection, empathy, understanding, forgiveness, and acceptance in your relationship. Not through forcing or fixing—through energetic alignment. This episode is for you if:  Your body has been giving you information you're scared to trust You're tired of being the only one doing the inner work You want to understand the deeper energetics of conscious partnership I hope this episode cracks something open inside of you that ripples out into your most important relationships. And stay close if you're ready to keep diving into the real work in future episode to help you trust your inner knowing over everyone else's opinions, and create the conscious relationship of your dreams. 

You know that kid who needs to understand EVERYTHING before they'll try something new? The one who asks seventeen follow-up questions before agreeing to go to a friend's house? Meanwhile, your neighbor's kid just dives headfirst into every activity, breaks half the rules, and somehow comes out wiser on the other side. What if these aren't personality quirks that need fixing - but actually different learning styles built into their energetic blueprint? Today, we're diving into the six profile lines in Human Design - the learning and life themes that shape how your child naturally moves through the world. Think of it as their instruction manual for growth, relationships, and discovering their gifts. You'll Discover: The six different ways children are designed to learn and interact with life How to spot which profile lines your child carries and what that means for parenting them Why some kids need deep research before trying anything, while others learn best through trial and error The three life phases that certain profile lines go through (and what that means for long-term parenting) Ready to Transform Your Parenting? Human Design Happy Hour is where busy spiritual moms get the practical tools to parent according to their child's design. Every month we break down the complex Human Design concepts into real-world parenting strategies that actually work. Stop guessing what your child needs and start understanding their energetic blueprint so you can support their natural gifts instead of fighting against their behavior. Join in now!  Love this episode? Screenshot and share to your stories - tag me on IG @iamkaijadawn! Don't forget to subscribe so you catch every episode in this series.   Catch up on the series: 038 | How to Parent Your Kiddo According to Their Design Pt 1:  Types & Strategies040 | How to Parent Your Kiddo According to Their Design Pt 2: Authorities   Xx,KD  

Picture this: You're sitting with your partner doing something as mundane as canceling subscription charges when you stumble across apps on their phone that make your stomach drop. In one moment, the person you trusted completely becomes a stranger. The life you thought you were living? Turns out it was happening alongside a completely different reality you knew nothing about. Last week, I talked to Kylene Terhune, who lived this exact nightmare and then turned it into the most transformational healing of her life. Kylene is a betrayal recovery coach who discovered her husband's 10-year cyber addiction during a routine budget conversation. Her entire reality shattered in one moment. But instead of letting it destroy them, they used it to rebuild something even stronger. We're diving into the uncomfortable truths about recovery, why feeling worse after your partner gets sober is completely normal, and the non-negotiable ingredients for actual healing. You'll Discover: Why betrayed partner recovery and addict recovery happen on completely different timelines The difference between empathy and boundaries (and why you need both) What 100% commitment actually looks like (spoiler: 99% won't cut it) The subconscious work that creates lasting transformation beyond traditional therapy Connect with Kylene: Podcast: RecoverUInstagram: @kyleneterhune Loved this episode? Screenshot this and share it to your IG stories - tag me @iamkaijadawn! And hit subscribe so you never miss an episode. Xx, KD

Can we talk about the thing no parent wants to admit? We've all labeled our kids as "indecisive" or "flaky" when they change their mind about activities, friends, or even what they want for lunch. What if I told you those aren't character flaws - they're actually signs your child is trying to follow their natural decision-making blueprint, but we keep interrupting the process?In toay's episode, we're diving into the seven different authorities in Human Design, real examples of how they show up in kids, and the secret sauce of supporting each type without losing your mind. You'll Discover: Which of the seven authorities your child uses to make decisions Why emotional kids need time, sacral kids need options, and splenic kids "just know" The hierarchy that determines how your child's inner guidance actually works Ready to Go Even Deeper? If you're ready to understand not just your child's authority but their complete Human Design blueprint, join us for Human Design Happy Hour! This 4-part course helps you dive even deeper into Types & Strategy, Centers, Authorities, and Profiles to have a more full-spectrum approach to your design and those you love!  Join Happy Hour here Loved this episode?  Share it to your IG stories and tag me @iamkaijadawn! And hit subscribe so you never miss an episode.   Listen to Related Episodes: 038 | How to Parent Your Kiddo According to Their Design Part 1: Types & Strategies 003 | What is Human Design? The Basics You Need To Know To Read A Human Design Chart With Confidence   004 | What Is Human Design Part 2 - The Basics You Need To Know To Identify Types, Strategies, Authorities & Profiles With Confidence   I'm BEYOND grateful you're here!  Xx, KD

What if understanding your unique design could transform not just how you show up in relationships, but how you train your body, run your business, and parent your kids?   My friend Chandler is a Strength and Endurance Coach for Athlete Moms (she also has a podcast: The Athlete Mom Project on Spotify & Apple), and in the six months since we've been friends, she's completely revolutionized her approach to life, love and career by about learning Human Design and Gene Keys.   We're talking about how these systems have shifted everything for her- like how understanding her design has improved her marriage, her coaching style, and her ability to trust herself in ways she never thought possible.   If you wanna hear a first-hand experience about how Human Design & Gene Keys can change your approach to fitness and wellness, why understanding your energy type matters for business success, and how these tools can help you become a more intuitive parent and partner, you're going to love this episode!    Aaaand, if you want to dive deeper into this work with both of us, Chandler is hosting an incredible Hut Trip in Silverton, Colorado on September 23-25! We're talking alpine hikes to a lake, self-defense training for trail safety, a Human Design and Gene Keys workshop that I'll be leading, plus amazing food and connection with like-minded mamas who are all committed to growth- you can join us here!    Xx,   KD   Ready to Dive Deeper Into Your Design? Join my Gene Keys Book Club where we explore how understanding your design transforms every area of your life - relationships, parenting, business, and your relationship with your body. The Party Is Here!   Love this conversation?   Leave a review and share your biggest takeaway by tagging me in your stories! Hit subscribe for more transformational conversations.   Listen to Related Episodes:   038 | How to Parent Your Kiddo(s) According to Their Human Design Pt 1: Type & Strategy   033 | Why Your Childhood Emotional Patterns Are Sabotaging Your Adult Relationships (And How to Break Free)   005 | The Life-Changing Impact Of Your Human Design Type Part 1: A Deep Dive into Manifestors & Generators   006 | The Life-Changing Impact of Your Human Design Type Part 2: A Deep Dive into Manifesting Generators, Projectors, and Reflectors