Healing the "Not Good Enough" Story
Ever have that nagging feeling that you're just not quite measuring up? That voice whispering you're not ready, not qualified, not enough? We've all been there.
In this episode, we're opening up about our personal battles with the "not good enough" demon and how it shows up in our lives as healers and energy workers. We share the real, unfiltered ways this pattern affects our thoughts, emotions, and energy—and more importantly, what we've discovered actually works to shift it.
From recognising how this feeling lives in our bodies to understanding why it seems to surface at the worst possible moments, we explore practical approaches that have helped us navigate these challenging emotions with more grace and self-compassion.
We discuss the energetic patterns behind unworthiness, how to catch ourselves in the spiral, and gentle techniques for moving through these feelings rather than getting stuck in them.
The episode closes with a guided meditation designed to help you identify where "not good enough" shows up in your energy and connect with your higher self to clear these patterns with love and understanding.
Whether you're just starting to recognise this pattern or you've been working with it for years, this conversation offers honest insights and practical support for your healing journey.
Perfect for anyone struggling with self-worth, those interested in energy healing, and people ready to transform limiting beliefs about themselves.
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In this podcast we talk about the difference between effortless being and the conditioned need to do.
During the meditation - starting at 4:25 min - Archangel Raziel guides us in surrender into the unknown and trust.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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Welcome to today's episode offering a unique meditation experience.
Join Kasia and Ursula, as Archangel Metatron guides us in the ways of staying connected to our Inner Light.
During the meditation you will experience that when we are aligned to Spirit within ourselves, in our own unique way, we are empowered to manifest our highest vision and goals.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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We live in times of uncertainty and challenges, and in this podcast we reflect on how to find stillness and peace of mind.
We finish with a short meditation on connecting with inner stillness and trust at 22.35 min.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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In this podcast we explore the essence of the joy body and the liberating power of self-expression.
Why is it so challenging to be true to ourselves? The search for connection often leads us to sacrifice our authenticity, trading our genuine selves for the approval of others.
But what if reclaiming our authenticity was the key to unlocking the true joy?
What if, by reconnecting with our innermost being, we could tap into the boundless joy of self-expression?
Today we delve into the profound connection between authenticity and joyful flow, discovering that when we shed the masks and false identities we wear for the society, we let go off of the suffering locked as negative emotions in the pain body.
We can then embrace our true selves and step into our power like never before.
Join us as we embark on a journey of self-discovery and transformation. Through today's meditation we'll guide you back to your centre, helping you peel away the layers of inauthenticity and negative emotions that may have accumulated over time. Together, we will unearth the joy body that lies dormant within each of us, waiting to be awakened.
Meditation starts at 19:14 min.
So, if you're ready to explore the depths of your being, to rediscover the joy that resides at your core, and to embrace your authentic self with open arms, then tune in to this episode and celebrate the beauty of joyful living.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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Welcome to our first podcast in 2024 dedicated to welcoming the energy of the new year.
Our conversation is about creating an inner space for intentions which fulfil purest core needs in our Soul journey.
We talk about the importance of letting go in order to allow for the new to be birthed.
Letting go is a process, not a one off event, because we need to deal with our thoughts, emotions and energetic connections related to what we are releasing.
There is also the need to let go of the ‘hows’, and to surrender, accept and trust the process.
When we stop resisting and release our attachments, the Soul can take over from the controlling mind and through our body wisdom, feelings and spiritual intuition show us the best way through.
At the end of the podcast we offer you a meditation which we trust will help you identify and loosen the grip of whatever you want to let go of, and connect to the core needs you want to fulfil.
Meditation starts at 17:30 min
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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Why do we keep repeating the same painful patterns, why do we feel addiction to pain?
During this podcast we explore the pain body - the energetic field which holds the imprints of our past suffering and distress.
It has been following us for centuries with the memories of our ancestors still affecting us in the present time.
We also talk about the joy body and how through presence and conscious awareness we can befriend and heal our pain body.
In the last part of the podcast, at 16:05 min, you will find a meditation helping you to connect with your pain body and your ancestral line in order to release the suffering and reclaim the positive qualities passed on to you by your ancestors.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
Ursula website https://bit.ly/BlueShiva
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This short meditation is about:
Presence.
Peace and stillness.
Listening to the Self.
The wisdom of your deep Being.
To read the blog and the meditation script:
https://www.blueshivaenergyhealing.com/post/self-at-heart-meditations-listening
6-7.30pm UK time - alternate Thursdays starting 12 October.
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A drop-in group for women and men, which you can join just as you are and whenever you want.
There will be sharing, meditation and energy work for healing and transformation.
Run by Kasia Rutkowska-Parkes and Ursula Barbieri, expert healers and modern spiritual seekers
On alternate Thursdays, starting 12 October 2023
At 6.00-7.30 pm UK time
Online on Zoom
Fee: £15
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Welcome to another podcast in a short series dedicated to the Higher Mind.
Join us in a conversation about the characteristics of the expanded Higher Mind as compared to the individualist Ego mind.
We look at patterns of reactivity and suffering, which disconnect us from the intelligence of our higher consciousness, and at how we can access our innate spiritual deeply felt knowing.
We also channel a meditation where you observe a situation in your life triggering negative Ego responses, which you can transform with the quiet wisdom of your Higher Mind.
Meditation starts at 12:25 min.
If you are drawn to this subject you can also check out our earlier podcast on Higher Mind and manifestation.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
Ursula website https://bit.ly/BlueShiva
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Welcome to a relaxed conversation between Ursula and Kasia on how to rejuvenate during your summer break.
In this podcast we are sharing our own experiences of letting go of our busy minds and relaxing in the body. We talk about the importance of connection to the elements and our senses.
The feminine way of living is about releasing doing and coming into being, by opening our energy field and receiving the luscious abundance of nature all around, in the elements and all life forms.
We finish this podcast with two short meditations dedicated to connecting to the Earth and the Elements, for regeneration and harmony.
Kasia's meditation starts at 14:48 min.
Ursula's meditation starts at 18:48 min.
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Following our short series of talks on Self Love we have recorded a new podcast on Manifestation.
During this conversation we talk about the importance of the Heart-Mind balance and the state of Presence, which are key ingredients in the process of manifesting our purpose.
As always, there is a meditation - this one was recorded during our past workshop on the 3rd Ray of Active Intelligence.
We hope it will help you to connect with your dreams and inspirations and show you the way to manifest them.
Meditation starts at 8:26 min.
At the moment we are planning more episodes on Manifestation, which will offer ideas, tools and techniques to support you in the active process of fulfilling your dreams.
If you would like to comment, share your thoughts or talk to us about our work you can contact us on conversationswithgoddesses1@gmail.com
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Welcome to the third part of the short series on Self Love.
Following your Heart desires and expressing your unique Soul essence is a very important part of Self Love.
Join us in this very personal conversation and meditation dedicated to letting go of any conditioning or ideas about what success should look like. It will also allow you to explore your deepest heart desire and the ways in which it can be fulfilled.
We talk about following what is true for us, what feels good and expansive, listening to our heart intuition and shining our light into the world bringing blessings to everyone.
Meditation starts at 15:51 min.
Let us know what subjects you are interested in and what you think about our podcasts so far. We are looking forward to hearing from you.
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Ursula website https://bit.ly/BlueShiva
Self at Heart is a series of short blogs and meditations to explore the art of Connection to Self.
In this episode you will connect to Presence, as our natural state of Joy.
Imagine for a moment being happy for no reasons, the heart is soft and open, you have no desire for anything. You are joyful and carefree. Everything is beautiful around, the colors and sounds in nature, all the different people.....There is only the present moment. You notice your breathing and your senses are acutely alert.....Gratitude flows easily through you, as you move slowly into the unknown, with curiosity and trust....
Joy cannot be induced, rather it is accessed as a vibration, through living in mindfulness presence.
To read more:
https://www.blueshivaenergyhealing.com/post/self-at-heart-meditations-a-skill-for-joy
The heart is our sacred centre, where we find stillness and self-love. In this meditation you will learn how to harmonize and balance your energy by radiating light from your heart. You will release tension from your body and mind and receive deep nourishment from your soul. Audio-recording of Master Your Energy E-course: Unit 2 - Mapping the Energy Body
To read the blog:
https://www.blueshivaenergyhealing.com/blog
Welcome to the second podcast in the short series dedicated to Self Love.
In this conversation, we explore the concept of the shadow and how it relates to self-love. The shadow represents the parts of ourselves that we try to hide or deny, but it's important to acknowledge and embrace these aspects in order to fully love ourselves.
How did these selves come into being and which of their qualities did we disown?
We bury parts of our subconscious mind because we judge ourselves, we feel ashamed and not good enough, at times even scared of our power and magnificence.
During this podcast we touch on the importance of cultivating Self Love instead of searching for external validation, and on the need to own all of our qualities of being.
When we integrate our shadow we become whole, and loving ourselves and the others becomes much easier.
We have also channeled a meditation of self-discovery to learn how to embrace your shadow, allow it to be seen and become a fully recognised part of you in order to love yourself more fully.
Meditation starts at 9:40 mins.
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Ursula website https://bit.ly/BlueShiva
Welcome to the first podcast in the short series dedicated to self love.
Join us in the conversation on the meaning of self love and its lack in our lives.
What it feels like to love yourself and how can we connect to our core, as essence of divine feminine and masculine love.
We discuss our mind/ego and how it may lead us on the false path of expectations, comparisons with others and ultimately betrayal of ourselves.
We have also channeled a meditation helping you strengthen the love for yourself and recognise and honor love in the others.
Meditation starts at 9:50 mins
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Ursula website https://bit.ly/BlueShiva
The last of three meditations dedicated to the Rays of Light, extensions of the Universal consciousness, cosmic currents that run from the source level and vibrate with different qualities and colours.
Information about the Ray from 01:25 min Connection to the energy of the Ray and its extensions from 3:25 min. Exploration of your own creative essence and vision from 16:16 min.
During this meditation you are going to call upon the energy of the 3rd Ray to transform what is blocking your connection to your Higher Mind. It will also help you to connect to your unique way of manifestation, magic and creative self-expression in order to create your vision for the future.
We are starting a series of 3 workshops on 18 May 2023 dedicated to bringing the energies of the Rays into our everyday life. During these meetings you will develop practical, easy, everyday solutions for making new choices in your life, by using tools such as discussions, journalling, energy healing and guided meditations.
You can sign up for the workshops here
3rd Ray of Light is the Ray of Active Intelligence. It is overseen by Master Serapis Bay. The archangels of the Ray are Chamuel and Charity. The colour of the Ray is yellow and holds the energy of dynamism as this is the Ray of the Creator-Magician. Its purpose is focused, creative manifestation. When embodying its vibration, you feel inspired and confident about your talents and creativity.
The first 3 Rays are classed as the key rays for humanity, enabling the manifestation of the Soul on Earth. These are Ray 1 of Will and Power, Ray 2 of Love and Wisdom and Ray 3 of Active intelligence. Ray 4 to ray 7 are extensions of Ray 3. The latter 5 Rays are known as Higher Rays supporting the merge of the Soul with the purest divine energy.
This is the second of three meditations dedicated to the Rays of Light, extensions of the Universal consciousness, cosmic currents that run from the source level and vibrate with different qualities and colours. Meditation starts at 2:50 min.
We are starting a series of 3 workshops on 18 May 2023 dedicated to bringing the energies of the Rays into our everyday life. During these meetings you will develop practical, easy, everyday solutions for making new choices in your life, by using tools such as discussions, journalling, energy healing and guided meditations.
You can sign up for the workshops here
2nd Ray of Light is overseen by Lord Matreya and Master Joshua. The Archangels of the Ray are Jophiel and Christine. This Ray is blue and holds the essence of the Christ consciousness. It is the Ray of unconditional love and oneness, spiritual wisdom and the Universal laws.
The qualities of its energy are calmness, compassion and surrender. It is connected to the vibration of the heart chakra. This Ray is associated with deities such as the serene Huan Yin, the Mother of Mothers Isis and with Buddha and Christ.
The purpose of the 2nd Ray is to open to the divine within through unconditional love and the universal truth.
The first 3 Rays are classed as the key rays for humanity, enabling the manifestation of the Soul on Earth. These are Ray 1 of Will and Power, Ray 2 of Love and Wisdom and Ray 3 of Active intelligence. Ray 4 to ray 7 are extensions of Ray 3. The latter 5 Rays are known as Higher Rays supporting the merge of the Soul with the purest divine energy.
This is the first of three meditations dedicated to the Rays of Light which are extensions of the Universal consciousness, cosmic currents that run from the source level and vibrate with different qualities and colours. Meditation starts at 3:09 min.
We are starting a series of 3 workshops on 18 May 2023 dedicated to bringing the energies of the Rays into our everyday life. During these meetings you will develop practical, easy, everyday solutions for making new choices in your life, by using tools such as discussions, journalling, energy healing and guided meditations.
You can sign up for the workshops here
1st Ray is overseen by Master St. Germain and Master El Morya. The Archangels of the Ray are Michael and Faith. The Ray of Will and Power is red and holds a vibrant and powerful energy. It is the Ray of leadership, of action and dynamism, of wilful determination. The quality of its power is raw and wild, connected to the lively Kundalini energy in our body. This Ray is associated with fiery and passionate deities such as the wild feminine Kali and the huntress Diana, or gods like Shiva the warrior and the wild masculine Pan. It is also associated with Michael, the warrior and protector. The Ray gives us the power to manifest our purpose, in harmony with the Creator’s will. In fact, we only use power with integrity when we follow our Soul’s purpose.
The first 3 Rays are classed as the key rays for humanity, enabling the manifestation of the Soul on Earth. These are Ray 1 of Will and Power, Ray 2 of Love and Wisdom and Ray 3 of Active intelligence. Ray 4 to ray 7 are extensions of Ray 3. The latter 5 Rays are known as Higher Rays supporting the merge of the Soul with the purest divine energy. Kasia Instagram