What’s up, witches and bitches 🖤 This episode is coming straight from the middle of it — not the other side, not the polished lesson, not the “here’s how I fixed myself” version. I was overwhelmed. I was spiraling. I hid in food, Netflix, and avoidance. And I almost didn’t hit record. But this is the work. Showing up anyway. In this episode, I’m sharing: What overwhelm is actually telling us (hint: it’s not failure)Why waiting to feel better keeps us stuckHow I get out...

What happens when you’re three days away from leaving your job… again? In this episode, Addie B — aka Slayer (her alter ego)— shares a raw, unfiltered check-in as she stands on the edge of another leap: leaving corporate America, stepping fully into CEO mode, and rebuilding her life from the inside out. This isn’t just a weight-loss (again) story. It’s a becoming story. After losing over 120 pounds, experiencing major health challenges, regaining weight, and navigating deep fear, Addie ...

Witches and bitches… we are officially 7 days away from me walking out of my job and into the life I’m meant to create. 😳🔥 In this episode, voice half-gone and soul fully ON FIRE, I take you behind the scenes of what it really feels like to stand on the edge of a life-changing decision — the fear, the magic, the synchronicities, and the fierce self-belief required to actually leap. We dive into: 🔥 THE COUNTDOWN TO FREEDOM Why leaving my job wasn’t even on my radar a few months ago… and the ma...

What’s up, witches and bitches! 🎉 It’s my 53rd birthday and I’m celebrating by doing what any midlife badass would do: talking colonoscopies, quitting my job, burning down old identities, and daring myself into the biggest life upgrade I’ve made in years. This episode is raw, hilarious, messy, squirrel-filled, and FULL of the magic that happens when you stop tolerating the life you’re in… and start creating the one you actually want. I’m sharing the fear behind-the-scenes of my nine-day count...

In this episode, Addie B — your resident Sagittarius fun-factory and badass midlife cheerleader — drops a truth bomb: we’ve become fun-school dropouts. Life got busy, serious, hormonal, structured, and suddenly FUN became something we “hope” happens instead of something we intentionally create. Addie shares how fun is absolutely not optional — it’s essential for your nervous system, creativity, weight loss, energy, and future self magic. She walks through her own transformation, including the...

30 days until Freedom Addie (leaves the day job)! This week, Addie shares a fresh take on transformation, inspired by a truth-bomb–filled catch-up with longtime client and friend, Lola. Together they crack open the real magic behind reinvention: stop caring what others think, get honest with yourself, and start intentionally creating who you want to be. Addie breaks down how she’s structuring her days with alter-ego energy — CEO Addie, Creative Addie, Community Addie, Me-First Morning Addie —...

Once I decided to quit my job, the wheels were in motion. This week I’m talking about what happens after the leap — when you stop chasing, stop overthinking the hows, and start believing it’s already happening. We’ll dive into: 💫 Why belief is the decision as well 💫 How my Human Design (Generator 2/4 Hermit-Opportunist) helps me understand my creative cycles 💫 What a Harvard Professor of Happiness taught me about how tech affects our happiness 💫 And how I’m creating my virtual ...

I finally did it — I quit my job and leaped into the unknown (okay, again, I am a Sagittarius, after all). 💥 This week, I’m sharing how I manifested my next chapter in midlife, what Human Design taught me about alignment, and how to trust the Universe when everything’s wide open. No backup plan. Just faith, fire, and a whole lotta tapas. 🔥 This week, Addie B (Slayer) shares the wild ride of finally quitting her job after two and a half years of ignoring the cosmic slaps upside the head....

This week’s episode is a full-body YES moment. 💥 After months (okay, years) of trying to “love where I am,” the Universe finally said: It’s time, Slayer. And when I tell you I listened — I mean I decided. In this episode, I’m sharing the raw, real story behind my biggest decision yet: walking away from the safety net and going all in on ME. No backup plan, no guarantees — just belief, alignment, and a whole lot of Eye of the Tiger energy. 🐯 We’ll talk about: ✨ What it actually means to ...

Aloha witches & bitches—it’s one of those “real life” weeks where the vibe is: it’s hard, but I’m still doing the damn thing. In this episode of MEfirst Midlife Badassery, Slayer gets real about: The seasons of life and why this one (the “Mili Season”) matters more than she realizedHer dance with forcing vs. allowing in manifesting and abundanceHow she’s learning to love her current season instead of trying to skip aheadWhat it really means to reconnect with your authentic self when you’v...

What happens when your dream artery feels clogged and your vision isn’t crystal clea?. Spoiler: you don’t wait for clarity…you create it. I share how my Sunday coaching group cracked open the question, “How do I actually live on a Monday?” and why impossible goals, tiny 1% actions, and a non-negotiable meditation practice flip the switch from hamster wheel to Camino energy. Inside: Resources & riffs: Brooke Castillo on big “impossible” goalsCorinne Crabtree on regains & focusing on li...

✨ Future Self Vision Meditation This bonus guided meditation is designed to help you step into the vision of your future self — the version of you who already lives the life you’re dreaming of. Use this anytime you want to: Connect with HER: the habits, feelings, and surroundings of your future selfCreate clarity around who you’re becomingFeel the emotions of living your dream life nowThere’s no intro or outro — just press play, close your eyes, and let yourself drop into the vision. Use it b...

Aloha witches and bitches 🌙 — Slayer is back after a week of travel and ahas, and she’s coming in hot with a soul fire message: when did you stop believing in YOU? In this raw and real episode of MEfirst Midlife Badassery, I’m diving into: My “come to Jesus” moment on the Arizona mountain 🏔️ (yep, tears included)Why habits are the bridge between who you are now and your badass future selfHow Atomic Habits, Law of Attraction, and Dr. Joe Dispenza all swirl into one MEfirst recipe for transform...

Aloha witches & bitches 🌺🔥—this week I’m coming at you from a Dallas hotel room, smack in the middle of leadership conferences, job manifesting vibes, and yes… airport construction noise. Life’s messy, y’all, but also magical. In this episode, I share: The synchronicities showing up in my world (Dr. Joe’s new abundance course basically mirroring my “Believe. Become. Be.” mantra).Why weight loss programs are where your soul goes to die—and why abundance & future self vibes light your s...

Hey badass witches & bitches—today we’re talking FAT! Yeah, I said it. Not in a “what diet are you on” way, but in a let’s drag the shame monster out into the light and slay it together kinda way. You know I love to slay some shit! I’m getting real about my own weight gain (yep, I’m back up over 280 lbs) and how this round feels completely different—because this time I’m not drowning in shame. Instead, I’m calling it my Love Fat. The fat that carried me through stress, growth, and life ch...

My Spirit guides don’t f*ck around. They told me: “Buckle up, buttercup”—and I'm waiting for it...is it the waiting I have to buckle up for, oh dear guides? This episode is about the impatient in-between, where you want results yesterday but the Universe is like, “Not yet, little Slayer” I share how I’m leaning into gratitude, visioning, and self-compassion to stay in alignment while eclipse season is stirring the pot. Spoiler: it’s not about the house, job, or skinny—it’s about wh...

Holy synchronicities! The universe has already started moving pieces around and of course in unexpected ways. From broken ACs to unexpected job offers, I’m unpacking what happens when you put the "work" into the vision and let go of the reigns (get out of the fucking how's) and finally let the universe open the doors - instead of me muscling them open (ha!). Here’s what we dig into: Why “accepting” your current situation can actually keep you trapped but can ALSO help you let go: what a con...

In this episode, I’m taking you inside my vision for 2030 Addie—57-year-old me who’s strong, free, and living her rich, abundant AF life. We’re talking what wealth really feels like, why freedom is my ultimate currency, and how you can start building your future self now, no matter what your current circumstances look like. You’ll walk away knowing how to: Get crystal-clear on what your future self actually looks and feels likeDefine your personal version of wealth and abundance (beyond just ...

What’s up, witches and bitches?! 🧙‍♀️✨ Today, we’re diving into the witchy woo of oracle card decks — because I get asked all the time what the hell to do with them. I’m breaking it all down: 🔮 How to find your first (or next!) deck 💫 How I use cards in my MEfirst magic mornings 📿 Why card pulls aren’t fortune-telling—they’re soul-whispering 🧠 How decks like these help rewire your brain (and why that matters at midlife) 🃏 Plus: I pull THREE of my favorite decks o...

What if the life you're living now… is the reason your future self is screaming, “WTF are you doing?!” In this raw, real, and fired-up episode, Slayer takes you on a walk down both sides of the fork in the road — the path where nothing changes (aka the soul-crushing same-old), and the one where you finally say yes to becoming your future self. You'll learn: 🚨 3 signs you're at a major turning point (hint: your soul might be banging on the inside of your fat suit 👀)🔮 Why reverse visioning is j...