For the longest, I couldn’t understand how I could be so motivated to start new habits—working out, reading, meal prepping. I would get into a good flow, feel consistent, feel proud… and then one day I’d wake up and the feeling of not wanting to do it would completely overpower all the progress I had made. Before I knew it, I was right back in the same habits I worked so hard to overcome. And it finally hit me— What if it isn’t the habit? What if it’s the root? What if my identit...

What do you do when you enter a season of discouragement—when it feels hard to open your Bible, spend time with God, or even sit in His presence? When the emotions you’re carrying don’t lead to motivation, but instead create shame, guilt, and distance? We all experience moments when our faith walk isn’t as strong as we hoped it would be. And in those moments, scrolling on social media can easily replace real time with God—leaving us spiritually full of noise, but empty of connection. In thi...

This episode was long overdue because there comes a time when we all have to ask ourselves a serious question: Are you a true follower of Christ… or just a fan? When life hits hard, do you run towards God or away from Him? When your flesh needs to be challenged, do you sit in the discomfort, or do you choose the easier route—even when it’s harmful? When you pray, do you wait patiently, or do you take matters into your own hands because you feel like God is taking too long? Matthew 13 walks ...

How many times have you pushed something off? Avoided doing it because it wasn’t perfect? Sheww, I’m even doing it right now—knowing I had all the time in the world to get it done. But why is that? Why do we keep pushing tasks back instead of knocking them out? What’s the real root of procrastination? Every time you make that choice—every time you follow that familiar habit of putting things off—it affects you more negatively than you realize. But what if someone told you the real reason? The...

How often do you actually reflect on your life when you turn a year older? We celebrate, we go out with friends and family — but we rarely sit still long enough to look back at our growth… where we improved, where we fell short, and how far we’ve really come. In this episode, I take time to reflect on what I’ve been working on, what still needs work, and the places where I’ve seen God move in my life. This kind of reflection helped me process my wins and losses and showed me how much I’ve gr...

We often talk about how Judas betrayed Jesus, but we don’t talk enough about how Jesus still loved Judas — even knowing what he would do. And if we’re honest, many of us don’t want to admit that we have a little Judas in us too. There are moments we’ve betrayed Jesus in our own way — not because we wanted to, but because He didn’t meet our expectations… or because He allowed us to fail… or because His plan didn’t look like what we prayed for. And disappointment can make us turn away from the ...

How long have you either lied to yourself or lived in a lie because you feared rejection, judgment, or the fear of change? That was me — someone who was in a chokehold by fear and guilt based on my past. But you know what the LORD did for me? He allowed me to see that no matter what my truth is, it’s where I am loved the most by Him. The fear of man can blur our vision of what God wants to do through us. Sometimes we are so tainted by our external damage that we allow it to cloud our judgment...

For years, I kept quiet — haunted by the burdens of who I used to be. The mistakes I made, the things I did... I no longer trusted myself. I couldn’t even look at me. I actually planned to stay mad at myself for the rest of my life because it felt safe — and honestly, the world justified it. We often praise women through the lens of feminism, telling them to do what feels right for them and their bodies. But what if what we choose leaves us scarred and ashamed, far from recovery? This c...

In this episode, Lovasia talks about forgiveness — what it truly is and how it affects us in more ways than we realize: our hearts, our reactions, and even our actions. Forgiveness is a gift — one that’s meant to be given and received. Lovasia dived into Matthew 6:14, where God calls us to forgive others so that we can fully experience His holy forgiveness. She also broke down the negative effects of unforgiveness — how it impacts our mental state, our relationships, and our overa...

In this episode, I share how my relationship with God first began—it felt like meeting a kind stranger. Someone who was always there when I needed Him the most. Over time, that curiosity and desire to know Him more turned into a real relationship. There was never any pressure, just my heart wanting to draw closer to Him. But with that closeness came questions: If I truly know Him, then why do I sometimes struggle to trust when He’s always been there—even before I asked?If I say I love Him, wh...

In this episode, we break down the worries of the mind and ask the real questions: What is your focus as a Christian believer?Are you still going against God’s Word when He says, “Do not worry” because His Father will provide all you need?Do we allow the world to create worry in us—and let that worry turn into hopelessness?We dive into what could be holding us back from our future, why we obsess over it, and why—if we care so much—we still do things that jeopardize the very future we’re prayi...

This episode is all about learning to accept the people we love right where they are. So often, when we experience something new—whether it’s healing, growth, or a deeper walk with God—we want everyone around us to experience it too. But here’s the truth: you made the decision to change… they haven’t yet. And trying to force them to change because you did isn’t fair to them—or to you. Sometimes, that urge to “pull them along” is really just you running back to comfort. Because if you had to t...

How many times have you asked yourself: “What have I done to be stuck in this cycle of self-sabotage?” “Am I holding myself back, or is there a part of me that refuses to move forward?” In this episode, I break down the **avatars we create from trauma and pain**—the versions of us that show up when we’re triggered. These avatars might feel like protection, but really, they keep us from showing up as who we truly are today. This conversation brings clarity to: * How self-sabotage shows up t...

When reality doesn’t match what you imagined, it’s easy to start questioning everything. “Am I even on the right path?” “Will the goals I set ever come to pass?” “If I knew better back then, would I be in a better place now?” We stress ourselves out comparing where we thought we’d be two years ago to where we are today. And in that stress, the cycle of self-sabotage only gets louder—bad jobs, bad relationships, broken habits, endless worry. But here’s the truth: **the problem isn’t the goa...

Whew… this episode opened up *a lot* for me. Accepting your past? It’s not easy. It brings up old emotions, confirms hard truths, and forces you to look at things you’d rather leave buried. But here’s the thing—dipping into the past isn’t about staying stuck in survival mode. It’s about understanding where you’ve been so you can shape where you’re going. In this episode, I share how looking back can actually **brighten your future**. When you analyze what was, you can better prepare for wha...

Whew… for years I wrestled with anxiety over my future—trying to control the outcome, panicking when my plans didn’t align with what I *thought* was supposed to happen. I used to think if things didn’t go exactly right, then maybe I’d miss the promise altogether. But the truth is... I was idolizing the destination more than I was trusting the process. In this episode, I share the weight of that pressure and the peace I’ve found in letting go. We dive into a scripture in Luke that gently rem...

Have you been feeling like you’re behind? Like no matter how hard you try, something always pulls you back—whether it’s procrastination, fear, or just avoiding the healing you know you need? Whew… trust me, I’ve been there. Honestly, I’m still walking through it. In this episode, I had to sit with a hard question: Is my self-sabotage holding me back… or secretly pushing me forward? Sometimes we think the uncomfortable stuff—the trauma, the healing, the truth we don’t want to face—is what’s ...

Where do I even start? This episode… whew, chile. It hit deep in ways I didn’t even expect. We got into the roots of self-sabotage—how it’s often tied to unhealed trauma, and how that trauma quietly shapes the way we see God, ourselves, and what we think we deserve. I’m talkin’ about thought patterns that keep us stuck, how we try to control everything because of hyper-independence, and the emotional walls we put up thinking it’s protection—but it’s really disconnection. This episode was so...

In this episode, I’m kickin’ off a brand new series that’s been heavy on my heart—**Awareness & Suffering**. We’re diving deep into what it really means to know who you are*—not just what you want, but *who you have to become to actually carry what you’re praying for. This ain’t about surface-level faith. We’re talking about the **real stuff**: self-doubt that creeps in when no one’s watching, mindsets that keep sabotaging your growth, and the inner work that most people avoid beca...

Have my emotions been blocking me from pursuing God—because of how I feel about my past? Whew… this one hit deep. The closer I got to Jesus, the more I saw my own humanity. And honestly? That exposure made me feel ashamed to even be in His presence. Instead of running toward Him, I started pulling back. Have you ever felt like that? Like your pain and your past disqualify you from His love? In this episode, we’re kicking off the "Awareness in Suffering Well" series—starting with one hard t...